omg it's zh!

The picture kinda looks like me. Sadly, it ain't.

Studying makes me a depressed person.
Okay, maybe it does for everyone else.
I guess its more of the stress that makes me feel extremely depressed, not the studying.
Especially when it's the unnecessary stress generated within me from being too pessimistic.
And this is what you get when I'm stressed: a new post!

Yes, just in case you don't know, it's the examination period now.
And I've got 2 papers to go, ending this Wednesday, 2nd March.
I KNOW IT'S JUST 4 DAYS AWAY. (zh, stop complaining and go study for fuck)
I've got lots of whiny and irritating thoughts going through my mind.
Thoughts like, "I haven't got A for any examinable modules except for accounts."
And I've thoughts that tell me I ain't gonna ace any of the modules this time.
Thoughts that constantly remind me that I've tried so hard for the first paper: Marketing Research, yet it still being disappointing.
I know I've got to get out of this kinda mentality in order to do better.
But still...

Other than that, comes the issue on projects where I get the same marks as certain people even when they don't put in much effort in projects.
And I have to clean up after them.
So what if there's peer evaluation?
It's not like their grades are going to be a huge difference if I mark them down right.
Guess what's the best part?
They ALWAYS score better in examinations.
Worse, they pretend like they don't study, they don't care, but still score straight As.
You, yes you, seriously, I'm not gonna get in the same group as you anymore.
You're gonna survive with people just like you, people who don't care.
I don't care if you're reading this, just like how you don't bother to help out in projects.
It's just like how you're willing to watch me suffer cleaning up your shit regardless of the friendship.
I'm gonna watch you eat shit next semester, regardless of friendship.
Okay, better shut up.

Yes, and with all that stress, there will definitely be thoughts unrelated to studies.
I know I don't seem to mind usually.
But these days, the way you speak, the way you act, gets on me.
When you say, "whatever".
It just comes across to me like you don't care.
I just feel that...
Okay never mind, no one's gonna read this part anyway.
But seriously...
This stress is really getting on me ):

Okay, have to get back to my notes soon.
I'm already trying my hardest okay, even if I don't seem like I am.
I know I ain't delivering...
RAH, okay, formspring Q&A.
2 questions only, so it's gonna be quick.

Q: I agree... Everyone's busy. But wait till holiday I jio you out ttm d bah! :)
A: HAHA, I wasn't referring to you, but still, alright, you better stick to your promise. :/

Q: I VERY SAD!
A: Hi, who are you? How come sad leh? (I wonder if you've thought about how I should go about replying this, especially when I don't know who you are.)

That's gonna be all.
It's Human Resource Management on Monday.
And it's Gaming Operations Management on Wednesday.
I doubt I'd be blogging till then.
Goodbye, take care, see you all soon!

I wish I could watch a sunset like this with you someday.
Talk about our future even though we've got no clue.
Listen to the waves crash against the shore.
Let you lie in the embrace of my arms.
Watch ships passing by.
Talk about the most random things ever.
And when the sun sets, watch the stars together.
Lend you my coat so you'll feel no cold.
Hold your hand.
Look into your eyes, forget about anything else...
Think to myself, as long as I'll have you by my side, I'd need nothing else.
Nothing but you...

But hey, come back to reality.
It's just wishful thinking...
Probably mindless dreaming...
Things don't and won't work this way.
Nothing like this will work out.
It's just a fantasy.
Living in a practical society like this, that'll never happen.
Everybody's busy.
With school, with our family, with our friends.
Who's gonna make time for who?
If only we could live in a world with just you and I.
If we could escape the crowd somehow.
I know I shouldn't for asking for too much.
Especially when I came into this knowing this would happen.
You're already trying your best.
And it'd be wrong for me to constantly want more out of this.
I know I should appreciate what I already have.
I know I should appreciate you. :/
I don't wanna tell you all this.
I don't wanna add on to your already heavy burden.
I don't know how to go about entertaining these thoughts.

I know I sound really immature.
I always laugh at people who think like this.
Who do they think they are, Taylor Swift?
Then I realise, I'm like this too.
I'd have thoughts like this too...

Moving along...
That was just the thoughts I had when I was studying.
Sorry for it not being entertaining, HAHA.
Okay, here's formspring Q&A and I'm off.

Q: I WILL TOTALLY STALK YOU ZHERO. ;O -gives identity away-
A: Hello Jeano, thanks for being such a faithful reader, HAHA.

Q: I wan ur fcking jibai
A: Don't have one, go look for a whore, maybe you'd find one there.

Q: which friend of yours has a nice smile?
A: Hi, you must be wanting me to mention you right. Hmm, I'd name 3. Pui Fun, Shannon and Nigel. I know I didn't mention you.

Should be getting back to my notes.
That was just a break from studying.
I hope you're happy.
Behbeh. (:
I just wanna spend more time with you, that's all. ):

Hello, just a quick post before I revise UCCD.
Saw some meaningful quotes today.
It's kinda my valentine's day post to all of you, HAHA.
Aww, ain't I sweet?
K not really, I know.
I'd share them with you guys before I do my work.
I decided not to retweet cause I felt that people who retweet stuff are damn irritating.
HAHA, no kidding.
So anyway, here goes!
Read if you're interested, if not, byebye. HAHA.

"Words may sting, but the silence what makes the heart breaks"

"Sometimes its not only bad memories that makes u sad, but also the best ones which u know will not happen for second time"

"Love is when you find someone better, yet you stay with the same person you promise to spend forever with."

"I smile a lot these days. and everybody knows it's because of you. everybody knows it, but you."

"Did u know that when people appear in your dreams, it's because that person wants to see you. -TIME magazine"
You'd see me in your dreams tonight...

Yeah, I know what you're gonna say.
STOP EMOING!
No I'm not, these quotes really...
Mean something?

Alright, have to go.
Till next time (end of examinations), beh!

Hello once again guys.
If you do even notice, you would realise I'm blogging a little bit more than usual.
And you know what that means?
Okay, if you don't too bad, go figure it out yourself.
No, I'm kidding.

I think this is gonna be like damn weird.
I think nobody even read the previous post.
HAHA, okay, so who am I addressing "guys" again?
Okay moving along.

What did I want to talk about anyway?
Oh yes, my first ever shaving experience.
I shaved my moustage/beard/whatever for the very first time today.
And being the damn act person that I am, I used a manual shaver.
I bet like tonnes of the people out there use electric shavers.

Okay anyway, if you're a girl and you do not know...
Electric shavers are...
...
...
Okay I've never seen them before so I don't know either -.-
But I think, you do not have to use any shaving cream and you do not have the opportunity to cut yourself.
As for manual shavers, it's the exact opposite.

So you might ask, why I chose manual shavers?
And to add, at my very first go at shaving.
Cause I thought it was cooler and I wanted to act cool.
WTF yeah, now that I think of it, who was gonna know which shaver I used?
Idiot. (-1 for me).
In the end, I cut myself on the lip.
Yeap, how did it even get there right.
So the blood kept flowing and flowing for 10minutes and I had to wash my face with tissue in my mouth.
Imagine that.
Why wasn't the blood clotting?
And I haven't ate anything ever since. ):
Okay whatever, who cares HAHAHA.

Let's move on from shaving.
The reason why I've been blogging these 2 days, if you read the previous post, is because it makes me happier.
Somehow.
Man, I sound like some... okay I know that didn't get across right.
BUT HEY IT'S THE FORMSPRING QUESTIONS THAT KEEP ME HAPPY ALRIGHT.
Yes, even those by you haters (Yes I have haters) who just "fuck you".
At least... someone's out there and bothers to find out.
Yeah, damn attention seeking whore, I know.

Moving along.
I'm going to be creating a blog, which will be opened 10 days later.
Today, being day 1.
Don't stalk me yet.
HAHA like you will.
Okay, whatever.
That's all for today.
I shall go create the blog now.
Okay behbeh.

Hi, this is one of those irritatingly long posts again.
And I will have to give you a virtual cookie if you do finish reading it.
It's gonna include some photos, a video, formspring Q&A, some horoscope thingy and ~~my usual rants~~.
Striked off cause you're not gonna be interested anyway.

Oh and I've updated my music playlist.
The top 10 playlist of mine.
Awesome huh?
I've removed 9 old songs and kept one.
So can you figure out which song I kept?
If you can, leave the song name in the Formspring Q&A box section okay.
Unfortunately, there are no incentives though.
HAHA YAY OKAY LET'S BEGIN WITH THIS LONG LONG LONG LONG POST OF COMPLETE RUBBISH YAY.

Let's start off with the photos alright.

This is the brooch that we were for GOM project: The Golden Orchid.
I had to wear it at the position of a bowtie.
Imagine how stupid it looks.

Okay you know what, I actually don't know what pictures to post.
Zzz, so let's just move on okay.
This is like so pathetic. -.-
Like posting for the sake of posting.

Now there's the video section.
Okay I've been watching communitychannel recently, like a lot.
And I found some really funny videos.
The girl, Natalie's like damn cool.
I mean it's hard to find female Vloggers nowadays.
Okay I don't quite know which to post so I'd post this one.
Watch it, it won't cost much time.

Moving on the Formspring Q&A time...
Okay there's only 1 question this time round.
But I felt a dying urge to answer it so here goes!
Q: If you know you're irritating... why are you still being irritating?
A: Hello, I suppose you're the person who "commented" the last time. You know, it's not something you can control or change that easily and yes, I know this may somehow come across like an excuse to you. Being hyper and talkative by nature may seem irritating to people. Asking stupid and rhetorical questions all the time may be irritating too. So what am I supposed to do? Talk less? Control the way I speak? No, it doesn't work that way, does it? I don't know. I'm doing all I can to minimize this already, but some things in life just isn't within your span of control.
URGH, there was a dying need there to defend myself.
Okay, I do know I'm irritating, but if you will why don't you tell me how I can change?
Alright, I don't know HAHAHA.

Okay I wanna just say I've never read horoscopes before.
And I just wanna find out today, if horoscopes really work.
I know, it just depends on how a person chooses to see it.
And I'd try to be as neutral as I can be.
So I'm gonna just copy and paste a chunk of text from the internet.
And I'm gonna bold whichever applies to me. (You don't have to read everything, it's gonna kill you, just read the bold ones)
So let's see, would there be more bolds or whatever?
Okay, I don't know why I'm doing this either, but let's go!

Virgo man is extremely practical, possessing an inquiring and logical mind. Fickle in nature, a Virgo man is always on the move. He does not stay at one place and is likely to change even his residence quite often. Considerate, conventional and conscientious, Virgo males are down to earth in their moral outlook. They are obsessed with hygiene and cleanliness (DONT "ARE YOU SURE" ME) and as a result, often end up finding faults in others. They appreciate things of beauty and are very tidy by nature, working to keep their surrounding highly clean.

A Virgo male is very shy when it comes to sharing emotions. He finds it difficult to express him in front of others. It is important for others to understand that Virgo individuals are not outgoing by their very nature and will need help if they are to build confidence. A Virgo man would be far more fascinated with a person who has appealed to his intellect rather than his emotions. However at times, he can be exceedingly demanding and would ask his partner or acquaintance to prove their love for him time and again.

Okay somewhat true.
But horoscopes don't really play a part in anything.
It's just up to someone to believe or not.
Okay what am I saying.
Let's move on.

This is the rants section.
ARGHURGHRAHMAMA.
It's Day 2 of the Lunar New Year.
And I counted my Angpao money yesterday, HAHA.
Anyway, I kinda compared angpao money with a few of my friends.
I realised, I got damn little angpao money every year man, compared to them of course.
K I know there are people not even getting to celebrate this festive season so I'm not gonna complain that much.
Appreciate what I have man, yeap.

So yesterday I went to my Grandaunt's house.
And I played Mahjong, Casino Wars and Blackjack.
I won 1 round of Mahjong out of 4, yay.
But we weren't playing with money, so yeah.
Then there was 10cents casino wars which I broke even.
I kinda pwned in Blackjack though.
My ahgong was the first dealer and we kooped all his money and he had to leave. (OMG YAH LIKE DAMN BAD)
The my cousin was the second dealer whose money we constantly kooped before they had to go out.
Point of it all is that I used some strategies (eg. card counting which was kinda fail) and won $5.
Awesomeeeee. :D

I've got to meet the awesome bunch of people later...
G-CLUB!
The sudden meet-up is cause Weihao's gonna go NS soon.
And guess what, he's not gonna be there.
So I don't quite know what it's for now.
Yeah, just saying.
I've not met them for a long time.
So it's gonna be kinda fun I guess.

URGH BLOGGING MAKES ME FEEL SO MUCH HAPPIER.
YAY.
Okay, have to go, beh.
But first, CONGRATULATIONS IF YOU READ ALL THE WAY HERE.
Virtual cookie for you, yay!
Okay beh.

HELLOOOO.
It's been a long time since I blogged, I know.
And today I've finally got something to blog about!
Oh yeah, awesome.

The past week has been hectic with presentations and reports due.
So it was pretty much just rushing reports.
There were two nights that we had stay-overs just to complete the reports.
In the end, we submitted all 3 reports late and came late for the presentation.
So eventually, 2 projects got penalized, badly, especially GOM.

As a result, we had to come up with a killer presentation.
A presentation that would blow Ronald away.
So we had to think and think.
And being the usual us, we came up with all sorts of both stupid and creative ideas.
In the end, it was all pieced together quite nicely I guess.
And Ronald himself said, "You blew me away."
HAHA, yeah damn awesome.
But I didn't think it was THAT impressive though.
I think he said that just to make us think positive or something.
K yeah anyway, it doesn't matter anymore, it's OVER.

Okay so I got this damn nice "question" in formspring today.
So I decided to do the formspirng Q&A too.
Yeah i know you're gonna think I'm damn practical after looking at the question.
It's the third one anyway.
So here goes!

Q: fk you
A: k thanks beh, stop hating on me.

Q: I want green tea!
A: HAHA, what green tea? Kills sperms urgh, k not like we need it now.

Q: I think you should be confident. You have a pleasant demeanor and is a nice guy!
A: HELLO. HAHA thanks loads man, but being nice isn't everything, besides, I'm not as nice as you think too. I'm damn irritating and annoying. And you sure bout the pleasant demeanor not, HAHA. k, irrelevant, thanks anyway. (:

I DAMN PRACTICAL I KNOW, HAHAHA.
Anyway, valentine's day's coming, who are YOU celebrating it with?

Anyway, this happens all the time.
And I'd be damn irritating if I keep telling you bout it.
I'm sure you'd be annoyed listening too.
It's about how much a melancholic-sanguine needs your attention.
Urgh k I know.
K whatever, hope you're not reading this.

K bye,