It sucks to find yourself asking yourself, "Who or what am I living for?"
So I've been asking myself this question.
And honestly, I don't know the answer.
How about everyone reading this ask yourself the same question?
Who do you live for?
Why are you alive?
I'm pretty sure at least 70% of you would not be able to come up with an answer.
I came to a decision that the reason I'm alive is cause I'm afraid of death.
Pathetic isn't it?
Sounds like some emotional post again, pfft.
Why's my life filled with these pointless thoughts?
Some people live for themselves, with a passion, and a goal in life.
Some people live for others, satisfying people around them, so they will feel satisfied themselves.
What do I have to live for?
Friends play an important part in my life.
They were what made me to who I am today.
But they can't be there forever.
There isn't any point living for friends.
Friends who will one day take you for granted.
Friends who will one day make use of you.
No friend last forever.
Sometimes, I find myself sitting here feeling lonely.
Lonely to the extent that I'm constantly checking my phone to see if anyone texts me.
I realised I've been indulging in false hope for quite time.
And it's time to draw the line and wake up.
I knew that not drawing the line would have me ending up feeling as stupid as before.
Maybe its destined to be the way you should.
Maybe forcing something that cannot be is really impossible.
I don't know how long more am I going to try to fight this.
But I'm not going back to my old ways.
I just need the determination to keep this going.
Someone help me. (>___<)