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Power of time

2012-01-08T01:56:00.005+08:00

"Let time do the trick."

People always say that.
It really is true eh?
Nothing can be solved instantaneously.
Try doing it the quick way, you screw things up.
After all this time, things kinda got sorted out in my mind.
Things were really my fault weren't they?
I should've been more mature.
I feel so fucking stupid for doing everything to fuck things up.
But I know there is no point of saying sorry now.
Because you'd never come back.
And I've never be there again...

Perhaps time revealed our clashing personalities which hinted that we were not meant to be...
If only we could turn back time and try everything, again.
The right way.

2011-12-28T02:17:00.002+08:00

Or does it?

Just in about two months, I'm going to be leaving this place.
I've kinda had enough of it already.
Sometimes the crap I get is just unbearable.
I cannot wait to get out of here, and to New York!

But then again, the closer it gets to me flying back to Singapore, the scarier it becomes when I have to face the truth.
Have you moved on, with you deeply etched in my mind?
Have I just become a part of your history?
What am I gonna go when I get back to Singapore?
Am I to go look for you, or am I to move on too?

I don't know...

All (my playlist)

2011-12-03T11:55:00.003+08:00

ALL MY LIFE, I've been wanting to do something like sing.
Though I think I'm not capable enough, One Republic thinks I've got ALL THE RIGHT MOVES.
Ahh, now Kylie Minogue agrees coz I've got ALL THE LOVERS.
See, even The Wanted started ALL TIME LOW, perhaps i should fulfill my dream.
But then again, ALL I EVER WANTED was someone special, someone like Kelly Clarkson?
Just like how Auburn is ALL ABOUT HIM, I'm ALL ABOUT YOU & maybe McFly.
All of us wants someone to love, but look at Pixie Lott, she's just ALL ABOUT TONIGHT.

Just a random poem(whatever you call this) for the weekend.
Yes, I'm a loser with nothing better to do.

3 more months!
I can't wait to get back to Singapore.
Are you still yearning to see me, just like how I want you so bad?
Or have you moved on...?

What does it mean to you?

2011-11-19T05:37:00.004+08:00

Friendship.
It means different things to different folks.
To some, it means everything.
To some, they're people who come and go.
And to me, friendship stands in the twilight of the how those people see it.
I KNOW I'VE TALKED ABOUT THIS, DON'T REMIND ME.

Friends are my everything, believe or not.
Just few days ago, they nailed corkboards onto the walls right behind my bed.
And so, I decided to decorate them with pictures of my friends, things from my friends etc. (STILL DECORATING DON'T JUDGE MY ARTISTIC TALENT SO SOON)
Do you see yourself there? HAH. (I still have stuff on my desk if you are too heavy to be put up there).
(I should really stop putting brackets everywhere)
Life isn't pleasant everyday, and so is work: a pain in the butt at times.
Having those little things to remind me I have awesome people waiting for me back in Singapore never fails to brighten my day.
I know I'm not a good friend to some people.
I know I don't put enough effort into some friendships sometimes.
Relationships as well, but that's besides the point.
I really appreciate the TRUE friends that are willing to do so much stuff just before I came here, despite me not being a very good friend.
The situation at the airport proved it all.
So, thank you thank you thank you for being there.
Especially those amazing people who still whatsapp/twitter me everyday.

But despite the awesome people I know.
There are still friends who just, perhaps, aren't worth keeping.
If I were my own friend, I wouldn't wanna keep myself as a friend.
What have you done besides saying things you don't mean?
I really don't need you around, do I?
What does our friendship really mean to you?
I don't define "true friendship" as being there always, only an idiot would do that.

Formspring Q&A NOW. HEH.

Q: What would be the thing you miss most when you are at Disney?
A: Everything, everyone. Perhaps the most, food?

Q: Is there any shops in singapore that sell icing cupcakes? (except the icing room)
A: what, seriously. google?

Q: If you have 3 balls, would you want to donate one to me?
A: No, go find your own.

Q: START BLOGGINGGGGG! Jeanny alrdy blogged! :D
A: Blogged ma!

Q: its funny to see you and jean post abt food! hahah *waves the singapore food* :D its going to take some time to adapt but im sure you will be fine! dun keep anything to yourself okay! im always on whatsapp 24/7! got anything just whatsapp if possible!<3 A: HEHE K I WILL ANNOY YOU NON STOP. Q: and talking abt food makes me hungry. what shld i eat? chicken rice or duck noodles or maybe sth else :PPPP
A: NOOOO GO AWAY. EAT BURGER AND FRIES ~_~

Q: No idea if you'd read this, but stay strong k!
A: No worries, I'm strong as steel, oh yeah!

Anyway, to you, who I don't know if you would even be reading this.
But I miss you.
Have you moved on with life?
Did I play just that short role in your life?
Don't I mean that much to you anymore...?
I still dream of you.
Does it mean you want to see me?
Or does it really mean I want to see you...?
I love/hate you. ):

Nevermind, I'd find someone like you.

2011-10-22T09:40:00.008+08:00

And somehow, it'd be same...

Gave you my final word and how I really felt about things.
But not hearing anything from you meant something.
Did it mean that you were just gonna let things set?
Did it mean that you weren't going to turn back, not even to look?
Did it mean I really meant nothing after all?

I guess things will be fine and soon I can live my life without you on my mind.
Memories aren't meant to rekindle any emotions, are they?
And I tell myself, it's your loss for not staying.
It will be, somehow.
And I guess I'd find someone like you, or maybe even better.
So, after all these, goodbye, I'm not turning back anymore.

Though very sincerely, I still want to be friends.
But I guess that attitude of yours won't get us nowhere.
So there we have it, back to what we once were: strangers.

Distance.

2011-10-09T06:54:00.007+08:00

Distance makes the heart grow fonder.
Or does it?
At least for me it does...

You know, I'm never good at managing relationships.
I always screw them up because I'm too sensitive about stuff.
I always screw them up because I get jealous easily, and upset over small stuff.
What more a long distance "relationship"?
And usually, I just keep it bottled up.
Why should I let anyone know anyway?
Well, at the very least, I should let you know, because it concerns you?
But then again, I know it gets annoying when you have your own problems too.
Sometimes, all I want is just a 5 minute update of your life, or to update you of mine and hear you just respond to that.
We're 10,000 miles apart, on the other side of the planet.
And really, based on that, we don't have time for each other already.
I try, my best to keep myself awake so I could talk to you, even when I've got to get up at 3a.m. the next day.
But now, everything has been reduced to a stupid mailbox system whereby I drop you a text and get a reply perhaps 1 day later...
Is it really that hard to communicate?

I don't want to pick quarrels with you all the time.
But it seems like that's the only way to get us talking...
It's either I pick a fight, or keep things to myself, not wanting to bother you.
Sometimes, the things I do to get your attention... ridiculous.
I feel like a little heartbroken boy going on and on about this.
I'm not heartbroken...
I'm just upset about how things aren't working out, and I can't do anything about it.
I can't be the strong ZH i am...
It takes two hands to clap...
And if only you would tell me how you really feel about everything.
I know you've said it, to set aside our feelings for the moment.
I know you've said you hated the distance too.
I've come to the point where I've to reassure myself that everything's going to be okay...

I don't want to lose my feelings towards you.
But holding on has become so tough, especially when it seems so... distant, physically, mentally and emotionally.
I don't want to break my promise I made... to hold on to my feelings till I see you again.
But if you would tell me to hold on... you don't know how much strength that gives me.
I want to travel the states with you once I'm done with my programme.
I want to fulfill the dreams we both made together, milking cows in a farm.
I want to go back to see a Beagle we'll both own.
I want to have desserts and laugh at you again.
I want to hold you in my arms again...

I will hold on, for the memories we made to occur again...
But if only you would help me, and tell me everything'll be okay.

Sorry I'm such a pussy, whining all the time.
I'm just not like many of you, who can just "not care" about things...

Unlike me.

2011-09-19T07:13:00.002+08:00

This post has totally no relation to my stay USA, just one on my usual rants.
Just feel like I needed to get some feelings off my chest.
Who else is willing to always be there to listen to what I have to say, other than my blog?
So if you’re here to read about Orlando, refer BELOWWWW (the next post).

Have you ever felt lousy because of your differences with someone else?
Well I have, let me elaborate.
Everyone acts differently, because we’re special, because we’re unique.
But differences often come as something negative in my case.
“Why can’t you just see things the way I do?”
“Why can’t you just sympathise and feel what I feel, understand what I’m going through?”
“And why can’t you be more sensitive, to how others, or how I feel?”
I know I think a lot, and maybe it’s just me being oversensitive to what someone, or anyone does.
I just don’t understand why some people just don’t care, as much as I do?
Do I, or anything else just mean less than how much you, or they mean to me?
Why do some people see everything as a joke all the time?
Why can’t they just take things serious for once, can’t they understand the severity of matters?
Is it just the emotional quotient of an individual, or is it me.

I know I over-think a lot, but it’s not that I want to.
And often when I get trapped in a vortex of my own thoughts, I really don’t know what to do.
I often sleep it away, but it’s not like my self-created problems would be solved once I wake up.
And many times, I just think more the next day.
I always want someone to turn to, but that makes me weak, it makes me over dependent.
I wish I could rely on myself, be as strong as the people out there.
I wish I wasn’t a pussy like this.
I wish I could be someone who doesn’t care, someone who won’t hurt from caring, someone... unlike me.

Orlando.

2011-09-19T07:10:00.001+08:00

Hello everyone, I’m now right here in Orlando, Florida.
I arrived on the 13th September, but only settled down now.
It’s really hot here, weather’s pretty much like Singapore.
It rains quite often too, and I haven’t bought my umbrella.

I’ve settled down into my apartment with Linus and 6 other people, 5 from USA and 1 from Puerto Rico.
The people were friendly but it felt kinda superficial, maybe it’s just me...
I thought I felt lonely in California, but right here, it’s worse.
Everyone from SP is scattered around 2 apartment complexes in different buildings.
I can’t use the wifi from my room here because it is said to be not working, which means I can’t talk to anyone outside of the States.
And all that leaves me with Linus...
Linus and I don’t talk unless there are other people around, which leaves me with... myself.
I know all of you are gonna tell me to make friends, but really, are these friends going to be people I can turn to, and tell them how I’m feeling? ):

Moving along...
I’ve confirmed my position at the Front Office of Coronado Springs Resort, a Spanish style resort in Disneyworld, finally.
However, as there were problems, my schedule has been delayed, which leaves me staying at home right now when everyone else have gone off for training or work.
And to make it worse, my training schedule clashes with my Collegiate classes which both run on Tuesday.
I’m in a dilemma as to what I should do now...

My financial resources are slowly depleting, which leaves me 1 option: cup noodles.
I’ve got little money to afford food anymore.
I don’t want to ask for money.
And to make it worse, I cannot earn the money myself (yet), to feed myself.
Life sucks right here in Orlando.
And I’m getting so frustrated over so many things.

I really... want to go home.
I miss home, I miss my family, I miss everything else.

Homesick

2011-09-06T11:15:00.000+08:00

1 week down, and 25 more to go.
I’m feeling pretty homesick.
I know saying I’m homesick makes me seem very emotionally weak.
I know saying I miss my mummy so bad makes you think that way too.
But I really do...

How is mummy doing?
Is she worrying about me?
Has she been taking care of herself and eating well?
Did I make her cry again?
The thought of her crying with no one to talk to about her feelings kills me.
How is papa’s foot?
Is it bleeding again?
I’m feeling very guilty these days for shouting at them just because I’m pissed, just because they don’t know how to use Skype/Viber, just because they don’t respect my privacy, just because I had a horrible day, a horrible childhood...
Scolding my mum just because I thought she gave my Blogger/Facebook/MSN/everything password to my siblings.
Sending me all the way here must have cost them a lot of heart and money, blood and sweat.
Instead of being appreciative, I’m being immature and spoilt, made my mum cry so many times, so many times...
I’m sorry, I really am, very very sorry.

I really miss Singapore food.
I’m eating the same thing here every single day.
Food here is so expensive, a bowl of unauthentic Laksa costs $10++
I hate eating stupid Tacos, Quesadillas and Pizzas that make my breath stink.
I hate paying for overpriced bullshit.
I hate having to eat canned macaroni, frozen pasta, fake noodles when I fall sick.
I really miss the REAL LONG noodle Ba Chor Mee, Laksa, Roti Prata, Hokkien Mee, Chicken Rice... so much.
I wanna go home so badly.
The 6 months seem so hard to get by.
I just want to get this over and done with soon ):

I miss the emotional support I get back at home.
People I can complain to, when I’m frustrated, angry and upset, close to tears.
Here, I still do get to complain but only receive a reply a long time later, over a period of days, only after I’ve been through the pain alone.
Here, I have no one to run to and to wail and whine to.
Here, I’ve to put up a fake self to act like I’m strong, not irritating, because really, no one here can understand how I feel at times.
Here, I feel so lonely, so alone... even though people I need are just few seconds away.
I really really want to go home now, but I’ve to hang on, like how I’ve hung on for the past 19 years.
And of all things, I miss you.
Though deep down, I know you don’t, as much.
Alright, goodbye for now.
Will blog in a few days, on my day off.

(1) Internship - UCR Beginning

2011-09-01T15:03:00.015+08:00

My first sunrise.

Hello guys!
I’ve been so jet lagged these few days finding it hard to blog.
I’m typing this blog in parts, using Microsoft Word to compile everything as I cannot find time to do one whole post at one time, given my tight schedule and tired body.
BUT ANYWAY.

Okay, moving on to what you were all here for...
I shall start with the airport send off.
I want to thank everyone who took their time off, coming to send me off, I really appreciate it.
Nevertheless, I want to apologize for not spending enough time with each individual groups.
I know that saying I tried my best to manage between groups isn’t good enough.
But I just want to let all of you know that I appreciate you guys coming down, and even taking time off to prepare gifts for me.
I’ve finished reading all the letters and scrapbooks and they really touched me, i swear.
I didn’t know (ok maybe I did) so many people cared and loved me.
It made me realise that you guys were always there for me, but I didn’t appreciate it or reciprocate.
Thank you for all the useful presents like recipe books, cutlery and coats, I will certainly use them!
So here’s the people I want to thank in particular:

1. SJAB! Thank you for all the massive gifts and touching letters. I don’t know why you bought underwear but HAHHA, thank you :)

2. Maximus! Thank you for the nicely decorated scrapbooks, I spent so long reading the scrapbook.

3. 04 Elites! Thank you for the tablepiece/card, very nice k, I will remember to put it on the table as decoration.
4. 04! Thanks for coming down and saying bye. :)

5. Daryl! Thanks for preparing the gummies and Singaporean stuff, I will eat them real soon! I really appreciate it and everything else.

6. Dickson! Thank you for the card and the Taiwan seal to “Light up my life” HAHAHA.
7. Sok Ling! For the handmade card!

8. And of course my family <3.

Here at California, wifi is available almost anywhere.
Unfortunately, the wifi in my room is not working.
Thus, I have to either go to someone else’s room or to the hotel lobby to use my computer or whatsapp/twitter, so pardon me for not replying/replying slowly.
The weather here is extremely hot and I can die.
It’s so dry however, that it is so hard to sweat, unless I go running, which I have, even though I’m STILL suffering from jet lag.
I have been attending classes these days, eating a lot and shopping a lot.
The food here is extremely cheap and in huge portions.

BUFFETS.

CHEAP ICE CREAM AT AS LOW AS $3.29.
NEVER SEEN CANTEEN FOOD THIS GOOD?
DAILY BREAKFAST!

These days have been so tiring.
And just so you know, I’ve been typing this blog entry starting 29th August, Monday.
And I’m STILL struggling to complete it ASAP.
Time here passes so slowly, especially in the day.
1 day here seems like 1 week back there in Singapore.
Luckily I have awesome people here too, to keep me company, to help me get through this.

The Americans are generally extremely friendly, even though my hypersensitivity could tell that some of them didn’t like us Asians.
But who cares what they think...
I’m really looking forward to go to Orlando, where I can start working.
And at the same time, I’m looking forward to go back home.
I miss the food back there, I miss the people, I miss everything.
Frankly speaking, I’m already sick of the food here.

AHHHH, I’m finally done with my first blog entry.
Will do another as soon as I can.
Bye guys, and I mean it when I miss you. ):

DISNEYWORLD.

2011-08-07T11:57:00.002+08:00

Where dreams all come true...

Or not?
Yes, I'd be leaving Singapore for the Kingdom of Dreams in less than 3 weeks.
For, 8 months.
What exactly am I leaving behind?
Am I going to make the best out of it there?
What will happen to the world here when I leave?
Will it still be the same when I get back?
God knows.

Anyway, I apologize for the EXTREMELY delayed blog post.
I couldn't find the motivation to do a post on Redang.
And besides, I had TONNES of projects awaiting me. /lies.
It is now the last lap of presentations, with just one more presentation to go: SMIT.
I've got 1.5 weeks left before my final papers begin.
I should really be studying, shouldn't I?

Enough of school.
Let's talk about...
Okay, it's not like I have a life to talk about.
Oh, right, NAPFA. :)
Just completed NAPFA, though I've got no idea if its for real or just a trial run.
I didn't really know if I could pass or not when I took it.
/tries elaborating on the entire event but to no avail, so I shall just post my results.
Sit ups: 50.
Sit and Reach: 42cm.
Pull Ups: 5 -.-
Shuttle Run: 10:17 seconds.
SBJ: 225cm.
2.4km: 11.50minutes.
And I got a... SILVER :)
Awesome, no need for 2 extra months of BMT.
HEHE.

OKAY, this is getting awkward.
Formspring Q&A and I'm gone!

Q: I WANT TO GO TO DISNEY LANNNNNNDDD!! (:
A: Come visit me! :D

Q: Since there's a xmen craze going on. What superhero would you be and why?
A: Sorry I know this is kinda long ago, but I want to be the ice guy or Shadowcat! I've got a thing for ice and I wanna walk through walls.

Q: Maximus or Cupid? haha!
A: Both equally awesome lah, different groups of friends, cannot compare.

Q: did u ever looked at one of ur teachers and tot to urself "wow he/she is hot!"?
A: No, I haven't. Teachers are not within my league. Thinking if a teacher is hot is... disgusting. Personal opinion.

Q: Any recommendations for buffets targetted for meat lovers? (budget: below $30 per person)
A: The only thing I can think of is Seoul Garden. Sorry, not a foodie kinda person :/

I promise I'd do posts on my internship when I'm in the states.
I'd also be setting up a "spree" where I'd take pictures of things that may interest you guys and post them on my facebook, which you may order from me thereafter :)
http://www.facebook.com/omgzhzh
At the same time, you may request for me to buy stuff in the states on your behalf.
Just leave it in the Formspring section or contact me personally!
Okay bye.

Holidays :)

2011-06-04T20:51:00.006+08:00

HI GUYS.
It's been a while.
I know you don't miss me.
I missed blogging though.
...
HAHA k sorry, that was awkward.

Not blogging for a while made me think about this blog.
Like... Let me explain.
I used to blog because it was trendy and cool or whatever, in the secondary school days.
But the trend kinda subsided.
Then it became blogging cause I had a lot to talk about, a lot to smile about, a lot to cry about, during my poly days.
But really, who cares about my life?
If you do care and bother visiting this blog, you're either a stalker, a lover, or a true friend.
Else, you won't be here.
Now that it's not for any of the above purposes, this blog has become a stalking platform.
YES, COME STALK ME, FINALLY :)
NOT LIKE YOU WANT TO HAHAHA.
...
No really, I don't know what to do with this blog now.
I'm updating for the sake of updating.

Okay moving along.
"What was that all about?!"

I'm coming to my last term in SP.
Where would I be going after the last term?
Remember me telling you guys about the internship at Orlando, Disneyworld?
Yes, I just went through the interview some days back.
And guess what, I passed the interview... :)

And I've accepted my posting there as a lifeguard.
YES, A FREAKING LIFEGUARD.
Imagine me rescuing someone from the pool. -.-
Ah well, I'd make the best out of it.
I'm leaving Singapore on the 28th August, 1 day after my final paper.
I've got no time for any farewells, thanks to the planning of events... ):
But if you wanna send me off (I've got the cheek to ask), ask me about all the details!
Yes, I'd be gone for 6 long months. Miss me.

Next up.
Holidays!
Today's the first day of my 3-week-long holiday.
It won't be much of a holiday though, thanks to the Mid-Semestral Tests coming straight after the holidays.
This means studying during the holidays...
That isn't all.
I'm packed with project meetings this holidays ):
I've hardly got any time for myself.
I'm going to Redang from the 12th to 15th June though.
3 days of Sun, Sand, Sea getaway!
The next time I'm updating would be my about my trip to Redang, with pictures of course.
It's an awesome place, and I'm going with awesome people :) (Linus, Melvin, Sok Ling, Kassie, Wei Xiang)
Oh and lastly, I may be going on 1-day trip with someone equally awesome, if not more, to Johor.
Can't wait for the holidays to really begin.

FORMSPRING Q&A :D (I won't reply to spams)

Q: I think you can change your blog d song to i just had sex by Akon. Damn nice laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
A: You very irritating HAHA. Mixpod's currently down, I'd change it when it's alright.

Q: How come your gugujiao got the green tea smell one?
A: Uh, okay, fag.

Q: jiby jiby jiby [I'd not answer subsequent similar questions (whatever they're called)]
A: ok.

Q: blow the candles out, hide under my blanket. just me and you and i will show you my ___? (fill in the blank ) hehehe
A: AHHAHA, BANANA! -banana cheer-

Q: missionary or doggy
A: A dog, I'm life's dog. LOL. And, ______'s dog. Go figure.

That's all folks, I'd see you on the 16th June!

2011-05-16T20:38:00.002+08:00

I've got lots of formspring questions waiting for me to answer.
And though I have nothing to blog about, I shall just answer the questions yeah. :D

Before I do, I want to thank Jeanette, Pei Ying and Wendy for helping me find the bag.
And yeah, anyone else who tried to help, I appreciate the thought :)
Yeah, it's Baggu. (I feel damn suaku not knowing. urghhh).
With shipping, it costs $37.50 ($15 shipping), expensive like SHIT.

Okay, anyway, let's move on to formspring.
Thank you for asking so many questions.
LIKE ELEVEN YAY.
Keep them coming, I promise I'd update more often.
I promise.

Q: if i didnt mistaken...the bag that u are saying..is frm cotton on..=)
A: I saw similar ones at cotton on, but it's not, thanks anyway :D

Q: hello hpy. how're you doing!
A: I'm doing awesome HPY! you?

Q: i think right you should revive the FAM since i am playing every weekend haha
A: No time to play every weekend lah :/ so busy, last semester!

Q: ask shayne from 03 about the bag. he has one of those think he knows where to find them.
A: Yeah i know he has, but i dare not approach him. It's like, we don't really know each other also. I'd seem damn noob.

Q: I also need a long sleeved tee siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
A: HAHA WTS WITH THE SPAM. Let's go buy together lah, whoever you are. sms me thanks.

Q: and wtf i also spell jiby like that -.- he copy me d
A: I suppose you're shenghao right. wtv lah, only you 2 spell jiby like that lame. XIAOMING.

Q: why your blog d songs all so disco d?
A: any nice songs? suggest them, i'd put them on the mixpod thingy!

Q: Which part of your body are you most proud of?
A: Er, my face shape I guess, and my eyes?

And I'm done.
Till next time.
Ciao :)

2011-05-03T22:51:00.003+08:00

HI GUYS!
I found a picture of the bag I've been looking for, omgz.
But later I upload my friend kill me cause I don't know the person.
If you guys know where to buy this bag, can tell me?!?!?!

THANKS LOADSSSS.

UPDATE YO!

2011-05-01T14:53:00.002+08:00

Hi guys.
Yes, I know, it's been a long time.
And I owe lotsa people formspring answers.
And because I didn't reply, you guys stopped asking ):

YAH ANYWAY.
This post isn't going to be of much entertainment (wrong usage of word) value, but I need your help!
I've got some things I need to get.
Okay, perhaps not much of a need, more of a, want.
The reason why I'm getting these things is because, my pay's coming in, I suppose,
It's been a 2-month delay, and I hope there isn't anymore of a delay.
Here goes!

1. A black watch from Fourskin, (and if I can afford it, the $15 one I'd get 1 for each person in G-club!)
2. 2 long sleeved T shirts (because I've developed a disgust for T-shirts, short sleeved ones)
3. This is the one I need help for. I've seen people carry these kinda sling bags which I think are damn cool, but I don't know what they're called or where to get them. It's like carrying a piece of cloth tied together at both ends. I doubt it has a zip/compartment or anything. Man, if I could, I would give you an artist's impression on it, but I can't. My friend, Keith, says that I'd look like a Thai monk if I use it. But I want it! Damn, I can't find a picture of it. ARGHARGH.
4. A necklace with a Key on it. :)
5. Bracelet, those with black beads on them.
6. A guy's choker!

YEAHHHH.
This is gonna be like my personal records :/

Shit, why am I even posting this...
):
Yeah, help me find out what those kinda bags are called, and where I can get them k.
Thanks a million :)

Now, formspring Q&A!
Q: why izzit ur camp is 31 march to 3 march uh?
A: why cannot? o:

Q: Why doesn't McDonald's sell hotdogs?
A: Er, cause not halal?

Q: do you eat durians?
A: Yeap, but I don't like durians, like just durians. I like durian puff etcetc.

Q: wheres your tagboard? This formspring like not fun sia!
A: I don't want put, cause got spam :/ formspring better!

Till next time folks!

Quick Update!

2011-03-28T09:41:00.004+08:00

Camp in the cold.

Update, update!
Hi guys, I know blogging is so out of date now.
And I know not many people read my blog.
But hey, I'm one of the special and simple minded people who still continue blogging even though it isn't trendy anymore.
I'm such a gem.
HAHAHA, k no.

I've been taking part in Freshman Orientation Camp (FOC) as facilitator.
Yeah, I know, year 3 already still do these kinda things.
I'm not an official facilitator assigned with a position like events, group leader, etc.
I've just been asked to go there to help out.
Help out as what?
Like anyone else, I have no idea.
But like any other camp, this FOC has been a fun one so far.
The actual camp's on the 31st March (Day 0) to 3rd March.

Went for the training camp 4 days ago.
Met new people...
Played games...
Made a fool out of myself...
Fell in love...
HAHAHAHA, k no, I'm just kidding.
And yeah, the usual stuff you do when you go for camp.

-awkward silence-
OH AND YES, LEARNT THE CLUSTER DANCE WHICH IS AWSOMELY COOL.
I'd upload the actual performance here, if I get hold of the video.
I need more practice though, 'cause I am damn awkward when I dance.
And guess what.
The irony is that I taught the friendship dance during the training camp.
Like, right infront of all the facilitators, in the lecture hall.
You know how awkward I get when I see a group of say, 5 strangers.
I was facing 80+ people?
SHY x30480580458904580945890582097549057489357498 omg.
It was some last minute decision.
Let me just emphasize that I CANNOT dance.
But I'm doing it for the benefit of everyone else.
Awesome, am I not?
K shaddup.

Formspring Q&A!
Got loads of spam this time round.
Guessing that it's from Ben Soh, bitch.

Q: it's always very interesting to read your blog! as well as jeany's :D hehehehehe. guess who? :P
A: Hi marmie, didn't know you actually read my blog, interesting somemore leh! HAHAHA. thangz.

Q: Name 2 best friends in your class, a guy and a girl.
A: KNS. WHO ARE YOU. ALL MY CLASSMATES ARE MY BEST FRIENDS. HEHEHE.

Q: fk ur self
A: Spam sia, loser.

Q: jiby sial
A: Who spells jiby like that other that youuuu.

Q: eat my breast
A: Chicken breast, yumz.

Q: fk durian ok?
A: Oh kay!

Alrighto, till next time, bye!

Unconditional Love.

2011-03-15T21:23:00.008+08:00

Love: What has to come unconditionally.

Adolescence, the stage of life where we discover pretty much a lot.
And of the many things we find out, we find love, or what we perceive as love.
Many of us are wrong about love.
Love's a strong word, and many people, especially kids like us, use it for the wrongest reasons.
The first thing that comes to our minds when we talk about love is that special someone; being in a relationship.
Which of us has ever thought of our parents and what they've done for us?
Have our parents ever asked of anything when they made us?
Have they ever asked for money when they paid for all our expenses?
I'm sure most parents don't, because they love us.
Perhaps they'd expect us to take care of them in the future, when they are frail, and disabled.
In return for the times that they took care of us when we were weak: an entire lifetime.
Would it be too much to be asked of us, to take good care of them for just that short while?
No one can repay parental love.
It is unconditional.
It is priceless.

No, I'm not here to talk about filial piety today.
I want to say that love is unconditional.
If you love someone for what he/she is giving you now, it's not love.
If you're in a relationship and you feel that the other half is obligated to do something for you to keep the relationship going, it probably isn't love.
When you love someone, you don't expect them to pull a chair for you.
You don't expect them to give you roses every special occasion.
You don't abandon them when they are weak, you give them a helping hand.
Yes, there is nothing wrong with expecting that out of a relationship.
But if the reasons that led to the end of a relationship are things like that, you can go fuck yourself.
You don't deserve to be in a relationship at all.

Sorry for the outburst, HAHAHA.
Hi, I'm finally back from the hectic 4 days of work at IT Show 2011.
The 4 days were pretty much the worst job experience ever.
I got cuts, bruises and an injured eye after the 4 days.
Spent $200 on medical fees to date, FML.
I have little of my pay left -.-

I guess I shall not keep this long.
Formspring Q&A!

Q: hi zh ur blog is awesomeeeeeeee ^_^ #1 fan here! hahaha
A: Hi stalkerrrrr.

That's all.
Till next time when my eyes feel better.
Bye!

Home (Dark)

2011-03-07T20:57:00.004+08:00

Fatigue.

Hi, I'm bored and I've got no life so I'm here to blog.
Yes, you may be wondering what's up with the pictures that I've been adding at the start of my posts.
Here's why.
I realise that my blog doesn't really have much colour to it.
And I was hoping that these pictures help add a little life to my blog.
HAHA, okay perhaps not. :/

Been out these days.
Been really busy.
And I've got work this week,
Yeah, Harvey Norman again, some IT fair at Suntec City.
Come check me out when you're free, HAHA!
I'm gonna die from boredom there.
Especially when my friend, Shishi and I got separated, working at different areas, DAMMIT.
.
.
.
Sorry, that was just a random rant.

I'm gonna talk about 5 things that I can't stand.
5 things I've recently seen.
It kinda disturbs me -.-
Again, I'm just saying, don't go talk behind my back ):
Okay maybe not so much of "talking about", just mentioning.

1. People trying to trend their schools on twitter with #schoolnamefacts.
Is this an attempt to make schools famous nowadays?
Especially with tweets that don't make sense and no one else except the person who tweets it and their friends know.
I've seen bowenfacts, riversidefacts.
URGHHH, Riverside -headdesk-

2. People tweet-ing or facebook-ing acronyms.
ISDGWTPATDD.
If you're afraid of someone else knowing, just go create a private blog and talk about it all you want there.
It gets kinda annoying when I see it all the time.
I'm so sorry -.-

3. People retweet-ing horoscope/zodiac facts.
#Virgos are the most awesome people EVER #zodiacfacts.
It spams my twitter with tweets that I don't really want to read.
And worse, if you're retweet-ing it, it probably refers to do doesn't it.
No, I'm not really keen on finding out so much about you. :/
And yes, I'm virgo.

4. People pretending to like someone else, when in fact they don't.
I mean, if you despise someone, just tell the person.
Need you pretend?
Is it all in an attempt to hurt that person worse that it would have?
All the ostracizing, I can't stand it...

5. People who have a change of heart so easily.
I understand that not everyone has the same level of sentimentalism.
But for the sake of not having others talk behind your back, why can't you just hold your pee in a little longer?
I can't stand how promiscuous some people can get.
Sometimes, I'm like this too.
Or at least, I used to be like this...

I'm so gonna get so many people hating on me after this.
Again, I'm just saying and I did not have anybody in mind when I typed all these things out.
So don't get all sensitive and think I'm referring to you.
I'm not.

RAHHHHH.
And that should be it.
Behbeh!

Home (Cloudy)

2011-03-05T19:01:00.005+08:00

Free fall.

Hey what's up.
The picture's just kinda random, doesn't mean anything.
Ah well, here's the post that I promised to do after the exams.
And since my exams are over (since Wednesday), this post's for you.
Whoever's reading this, and still finds my post interesting.
Okay shaddup, sound damn irritating.
It's like an update to inform that I'm still alive, and how I'm living my life.
SIANNNN RIGHT, I KNOW HAHAHA.

Firstly, some ranting to get some things off my chest.
Hey you, yes you.
I was so wrong about you, after what I've seen you do.
Yes, I'm in no position to judge, I'm just an outsider, this is just my opinions.
But hey, if you wanted to break up with someone, couldn't you do in properly?
You really could have done it quickly and less painlessly, instead of going closer to someone else and let time play it's role.
You didn't just lose your mate this time round, you lost a friend.
So what now, you don't know how to deal with him?
AWKWARDDDDDD, but then again, who am I to judge, I'm just saying.

Moving along...
Like I said, my exams just ended, so I'm gonna talk a little about my papers.
Move on if you don't wish to read this section, cause it's gonna be damn boring as you'd most likely not understand what I'm trying to say.
In total, I had 3 papers: Marketing Research, Human Resource Management and Gaming Operations Management.
Marketing Research was a big-time screw up, but was the paper I studied hardest for ):
Human Resource Management got better, a little, and I'm kinda hoping for an A.
Gaming Operations Management was the awesome-st and I'm hoping to get an A too.

So anyway, I've been going out a lot these days.
Spending lotsa money. (URGH).
Okay, why am I even saying this.
HAHAHA.
Shall not bore you further.
FORMSPRING Q&A! (Ask me more questions please, I'm desperate for attention).
HAHA no, just kidding, but do ask me more questions, stupid ones, insulting ones, nice ones, anyone.

Q: I VERY SCARED NOW!
A: YOU DID WELL LAH.

Q: My cock itchy can help me scratch?
A: What's with all the questions on your genitals? If it's itchy, cut it off, permanent problem solver. :)

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.
.
Hi, I hope what I'm doing will make you happy.
I sincerely do.
I'm doing things according to how I perceive you want them.
Though it's not my idea of perfect, but as long as you're happy...
I'm sorry I'm such a sensitive and paranoid person.

Till next time, ciao!

2011-02-26T18:10:00.002+08:00

The picture kinda looks like me. Sadly, it ain't.

Studying makes me a depressed person.
Okay, maybe it does for everyone else.
I guess its more of the stress that makes me feel extremely depressed, not the studying.
Especially when it's the unnecessary stress generated within me from being too pessimistic.
And this is what you get when I'm stressed: a new post!

Yes, just in case you don't know, it's the examination period now.
And I've got 2 papers to go, ending this Wednesday, 2nd March.
I KNOW IT'S JUST 4 DAYS AWAY. (zh, stop complaining and go study for fuck)
I've got lots of whiny and irritating thoughts going through my mind.
Thoughts like, "I haven't got A for any examinable modules except for accounts."
And I've thoughts that tell me I ain't gonna ace any of the modules this time.
Thoughts that constantly remind me that I've tried so hard for the first paper: Marketing Research, yet it still being disappointing.
I know I've got to get out of this kinda mentality in order to do better.
But still...

Other than that, comes the issue on projects where I get the same marks as certain people even when they don't put in much effort in projects.
And I have to clean up after them.
So what if there's peer evaluation?
It's not like their grades are going to be a huge difference if I mark them down right.
Guess what's the best part?
They ALWAYS score better in examinations.
Worse, they pretend like they don't study, they don't care, but still score straight As.
You, yes you, seriously, I'm not gonna get in the same group as you anymore.
You're gonna survive with people just like you, people who don't care.
I don't care if you're reading this, just like how you don't bother to help out in projects.
It's just like how you're willing to watch me suffer cleaning up your shit regardless of the friendship.
I'm gonna watch you eat shit next semester, regardless of friendship.
Okay, better shut up.

Yes, and with all that stress, there will definitely be thoughts unrelated to studies.
I know I don't seem to mind usually.
But these days, the way you speak, the way you act, gets on me.
When you say, "whatever".
It just comes across to me like you don't care.
I just feel that...
Okay never mind, no one's gonna read this part anyway.
But seriously...
This stress is really getting on me ):

Okay, have to get back to my notes soon.
I'm already trying my hardest okay, even if I don't seem like I am.
I know I ain't delivering...
RAH, okay, formspring Q&A.
2 questions only, so it's gonna be quick.

Q: I agree... Everyone's busy. But wait till holiday I jio you out ttm d bah! :)
A: HAHA, I wasn't referring to you, but still, alright, you better stick to your promise. :/

Q: I VERY SAD!
A: Hi, who are you? How come sad leh? (I wonder if you've thought about how I should go about replying this, especially when I don't know who you are.)

That's gonna be all.
It's Human Resource Management on Monday.
And it's Gaming Operations Management on Wednesday.
I doubt I'd be blogging till then.
Goodbye, take care, see you all soon!

Us.

2011-02-20T22:00:00.004+08:00

I wish I could watch a sunset like this with you someday.
Talk about our future even though we've got no clue.
Listen to the waves crash against the shore.
Let you lie in the embrace of my arms.
Watch ships passing by.
Talk about the most random things ever.
And when the sun sets, watch the stars together.
Lend you my coat so you'll feel no cold.
Hold your hand.
Look into your eyes, forget about anything else...
Think to myself, as long as I'll have you by my side, I'd need nothing else.
Nothing but you...

But hey, come back to reality.
It's just wishful thinking...
Probably mindless dreaming...
Things don't and won't work this way.
Nothing like this will work out.
It's just a fantasy.
Living in a practical society like this, that'll never happen.
Everybody's busy.
With school, with our family, with our friends.
Who's gonna make time for who?
If only we could live in a world with just you and I.
If we could escape the crowd somehow.
I know I shouldn't for asking for too much.
Especially when I came into this knowing this would happen.
You're already trying your best.
And it'd be wrong for me to constantly want more out of this.
I know I should appreciate what I already have.
I know I should appreciate you. :/
I don't wanna tell you all this.
I don't wanna add on to your already heavy burden.
I don't know how to go about entertaining these thoughts.

I know I sound really immature.
I always laugh at people who think like this.
Who do they think they are, Taylor Swift?
Then I realise, I'm like this too.
I'd have thoughts like this too...

Moving along...
That was just the thoughts I had when I was studying.
Sorry for it not being entertaining, HAHA.
Okay, here's formspring Q&A and I'm off.

Q: I WILL TOTALLY STALK YOU ZHERO. ;O -gives identity away-
A: Hello Jeano, thanks for being such a faithful reader, HAHA.

Q: I wan ur fcking jibai
A: Don't have one, go look for a whore, maybe you'd find one there.

Q: which friend of yours has a nice smile?
A: Hi, you must be wanting me to mention you right. Hmm, I'd name 3. Pui Fun, Shannon and Nigel. I know I didn't mention you.

Should be getting back to my notes.
That was just a break from studying.
I hope you're happy.
Behbeh. (:
I just wanna spend more time with you, that's all. ):

2011-02-10T19:37:00.002+08:00

Hello, just a quick post before I revise UCCD.
Saw some meaningful quotes today.
It's kinda my valentine's day post to all of you, HAHA.
Aww, ain't I sweet?
K not really, I know.
I'd share them with you guys before I do my work.
I decided not to retweet cause I felt that people who retweet stuff are damn irritating.
HAHA, no kidding.
So anyway, here goes!
Read if you're interested, if not, byebye. HAHA.

"Words may sting, but the silence what makes the heart breaks"

"Sometimes its not only bad memories that makes u sad, but also the best ones which u know will not happen for second time"

"Love is when you find someone better, yet you stay with the same person you promise to spend forever with."

"I smile a lot these days. and everybody knows it's because of you. everybody knows it, but you."

"Did u know that when people appear in your dreams, it's because that person wants to see you. -TIME magazine"
You'd see me in your dreams tonight...

Yeah, I know what you're gonna say.
STOP EMOING!
No I'm not, these quotes really...
Mean something?

Alright, have to go.
Till next time (end of examinations), beh!

2011-02-05T16:05:00.002+08:00

Hello once again guys.
If you do even notice, you would realise I'm blogging a little bit more than usual.
And you know what that means?
Okay, if you don't too bad, go figure it out yourself.
No, I'm kidding.

I think this is gonna be like damn weird.
I think nobody even read the previous post.
HAHA, okay, so who am I addressing "guys" again?
Okay moving along.

What did I want to talk about anyway?
Oh yes, my first ever shaving experience.
I shaved my moustage/beard/whatever for the very first time today.
And being the damn act person that I am, I used a manual shaver.
I bet like tonnes of the people out there use electric shavers.

Okay anyway, if you're a girl and you do not know...
Electric shavers are...
...
...
Okay I've never seen them before so I don't know either -.-
But I think, you do not have to use any shaving cream and you do not have the opportunity to cut yourself.
As for manual shavers, it's the exact opposite.

So you might ask, why I chose manual shavers?
And to add, at my very first go at shaving.
Cause I thought it was cooler and I wanted to act cool.
WTF yeah, now that I think of it, who was gonna know which shaver I used?
Idiot. (-1 for me).
In the end, I cut myself on the lip.
Yeap, how did it even get there right.
So the blood kept flowing and flowing for 10minutes and I had to wash my face with tissue in my mouth.
Imagine that.
Why wasn't the blood clotting?
And I haven't ate anything ever since. ):
Okay whatever, who cares HAHAHA.

Let's move on from shaving.
The reason why I've been blogging these 2 days, if you read the previous post, is because it makes me happier.
Somehow.
Man, I sound like some... okay I know that didn't get across right.
BUT HEY IT'S THE FORMSPRING QUESTIONS THAT KEEP ME HAPPY ALRIGHT.
Yes, even those by you haters (Yes I have haters) who just "fuck you".
At least... someone's out there and bothers to find out.
Yeah, damn attention seeking whore, I know.

Moving along.
I'm going to be creating a blog, which will be opened 10 days later.
Today, being day 1.
Don't stalk me yet.
HAHA like you will.
Okay, whatever.
That's all for today.
I shall go create the blog now.
Okay behbeh.

LOOOOOONG POST

2011-02-04T11:11:00.006+08:00

Hi, this is one of those irritatingly long posts again.
And I will have to give you a virtual cookie if you do finish reading it.
It's gonna include some photos, a video, formspring Q&A, some horoscope thingy and ~~my usual rants~~.
Striked off cause you're not gonna be interested anyway.

Oh and I've updated my music playlist.
The top 10 playlist of mine.
Awesome huh?
I've removed 9 old songs and kept one.
So can you figure out which song I kept?
If you can, leave the song name in the Formspring Q&A box section okay.
Unfortunately, there are no incentives though.
HAHA YAY OKAY LET'S BEGIN WITH THIS LONG LONG LONG LONG POST OF COMPLETE RUBBISH YAY.

Let's start off with the photos alright.
This is the brooch that we were for GOM project: The Golden Orchid.
I had to wear it at the position of a bowtie.
Imagine how stupid it looks.

Okay you know what, I actually don't know what pictures to post.
Zzz, so let's just move on okay.
This is like so pathetic. -.-
Like posting for the sake of posting.

Now there's the video section.
Okay I've been watching communitychannel recently, like a lot.
And I found some really funny videos.
The girl, Natalie's like damn cool.
I mean it's hard to find female Vloggers nowadays.
Okay I don't quite know which to post so I'd post this one.
Watch it, it won't cost much time.

Moving on the Formspring Q&A time...
Okay there's only 1 question this time round.
But I felt a dying urge to answer it so here goes!
Q: If you know you're irritating... why are you still being irritating?
A: Hello, I suppose you're the person who "commented" the last time. You know, it's not something you can control or change that easily and yes, I know this may somehow come across like an excuse to you. Being hyper and talkative by nature may seem irritating to people. Asking stupid and rhetorical questions all the time may be irritating too. So what am I supposed to do? Talk less? Control the way I speak? No, it doesn't work that way, does it? I don't know. I'm doing all I can to minimize this already, but some things in life just isn't within your span of control.
URGH, there was a dying need there to defend myself.
Okay, I do know I'm irritating, but if you will why don't you tell me how I can change?
Alright, I don't know HAHAHA.

Okay I wanna just say I've never read horoscopes before.
And I just wanna find out today, if horoscopes really work.
I know, it just depends on how a person chooses to see it.
And I'd try to be as neutral as I can be.
So I'm gonna just copy and paste a chunk of text from the internet.
And I'm gonna bold whichever applies to me. (You don't have to read everything, it's gonna kill you, just read the bold ones)
So let's see, would there be more bolds or whatever?
Okay, I don't know why I'm doing this either, but let's go!

Virgo man is extremely practical, possessing an inquiring and logical mind. Fickle in nature, a Virgo man is always on the move. He does not stay at one place and is likely to change even his residence quite often. Considerate, conventional and conscientious, Virgo males are down to earth in their moral outlook. They are obsessed with hygiene and cleanliness (DONT "ARE YOU SURE" ME) and as a result, often end up finding faults in others. They appreciate things of beauty and are very tidy by nature, working to keep their surrounding highly clean.

A Virgo male is very shy when it comes to sharing emotions. He finds it difficult to express him in front of others. It is important for others to understand that Virgo individuals are not outgoing by their very nature and will need help if they are to build confidence. A Virgo man would be far more fascinated with a person who has appealed to his intellect rather than his emotions. However at times, he can be exceedingly demanding and would ask his partner or acquaintance to prove their love for him time and again.

Okay somewhat true.
But horoscopes don't really play a part in anything.
It's just up to someone to believe or not.
Okay what am I saying.
Let's move on.

This is the rants section.
ARGHURGHRAHMAMA.
It's Day 2 of the Lunar New Year.
And I counted my Angpao money yesterday, HAHA.
Anyway, I kinda compared angpao money with a few of my friends.
I realised, I got damn little angpao money every year man, compared to them of course.
K I know there are people not even getting to celebrate this festive season so I'm not gonna complain that much.
Appreciate what I have man, yeap.

So yesterday I went to my Grandaunt's house.
And I played Mahjong, Casino Wars and Blackjack.
I won 1 round of Mahjong out of 4, yay.
But we weren't playing with money, so yeah.
Then there was 10cents casino wars which I broke even.
I kinda pwned in Blackjack though.
My ahgong was the first dealer and we kooped all his money and he had to leave. (OMG YAH LIKE DAMN BAD)
The my cousin was the second dealer whose money we constantly kooped before they had to go out.
Point of it all is that I used some strategies (eg. card counting which was kinda fail) and won $5.
Awesomeeeee. :D

I've got to meet the awesome bunch of people later...
G-CLUB!
The sudden meet-up is cause Weihao's gonna go NS soon.
And guess what, he's not gonna be there.
So I don't quite know what it's for now.
Yeah, just saying.
I've not met them for a long time.
So it's gonna be kinda fun I guess.

URGH BLOGGING MAKES ME FEEL SO MUCH HAPPIER.
YAY.
Okay, have to go, beh.
But first, CONGRATULATIONS IF YOU READ ALL THE WAY HERE.
Virtual cookie for you, yay!
Okay beh.

The blow-away presentation.

2011-02-01T20:42:00.003+08:00

HELLOOOO.
It's been a long time since I blogged, I know.
And today I've finally got something to blog about!
Oh yeah, awesome.

The past week has been hectic with presentations and reports due.
So it was pretty much just rushing reports.
There were two nights that we had stay-overs just to complete the reports.
In the end, we submitted all 3 reports late and came late for the presentation.
So eventually, 2 projects got penalized, badly, especially GOM.

As a result, we had to come up with a killer presentation.
A presentation that would blow Ronald away.
So we had to think and think.
And being the usual us, we came up with all sorts of both stupid and creative ideas.
In the end, it was all pieced together quite nicely I guess.
And Ronald himself said, "You blew me away."
HAHA, yeah damn awesome.
But I didn't think it was THAT impressive though.
I think he said that just to make us think positive or something.
K yeah anyway, it doesn't matter anymore, it's OVER.

Okay so I got this damn nice "question" in formspring today.
So I decided to do the formspirng Q&A too.
Yeah i know you're gonna think I'm damn practical after looking at the question.
It's the third one anyway.
So here goes!

Q: fk you
A: k thanks beh, stop hating on me.

Q: I want green tea!
A: HAHA, what green tea? Kills sperms urgh, k not like we need it now.

Q: I think you should be confident. You have a pleasant demeanor and is a nice guy!
A: HELLO. HAHA thanks loads man, but being nice isn't everything, besides, I'm not as nice as you think too. I'm damn irritating and annoying. And you sure bout the pleasant demeanor not, HAHA. k, irrelevant, thanks anyway. (:

I DAMN PRACTICAL I KNOW, HAHAHA.
Anyway, valentine's day's coming, who are YOU celebrating it with?

Anyway, this happens all the time.
And I'd be damn irritating if I keep telling you bout it.
I'm sure you'd be annoyed listening too.
It's about how much a melancholic-sanguine needs your attention.
Urgh k I know.
K whatever, hope you're not reading this.

K bye,

Formspring Q&A

2011-01-15T21:40:00.002+08:00

AHH FORMSPRING QUESTIONS.
Just a short post and I'm gone.

Q: What do you like about my dick?
A: Nothing leh, how? -.-

Q: what's your fav plant?
A: HAHA HPY YOU RIGHT. Erm, Mimosa?

Q: you damn ass!! HAHA
A: HAHAHA thanks ah HPY. I'm your no.1 stalker.

Q: Who's the girl you like? Is it from your class?
A: Hi zehzeh. I don't like lah. -shyzzzzz-

Okay done, bye.
I'll update when I have something to blog about.
Meanwhile, I'm working at Harvey Norman's warehouse sale.
Tomorrow's the last day!
Come visit if you want to.

Okay, really, beh.

2011-01-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

It's funny how something little you do can make me smile.
How I wish I could do the same too.

The usual nonsense.

2011-01-13T00:12:00.005+08:00

Hello, it's like 12am now.
And there's HRM tutorial at 8 tomorrow.
But ah whatever, I wanna do a short post.
Yes, as you can read from the title, it's my usual nonsense again.
The usual emotional rants (note: the rants are emotional, not me).
Then I'll follow up with some Formspring Q&A cause they questions came real fast thanks to Ben Soh.
Then I'd go to bed.

So here goes.
-removed cause I think damn disgusting-
And yeah...
Okay, I really don't know what I'm trying to say here.
Let's move on.

Formspring Q&A!

Q: What do you like about Katy Perry?
A: FINALLY A DECENT QUESTION! Katy Perry, I started liking her only from Thinking of You, which was like a really nice songs. She's a singer songwriter which is like amazing, and her songs really apply to my life, kinda. So yeah, and she's hot and amazing YAY.

Q: Eh wtf, i dont spell it that way okay! =.= (asked by xbensohx)
A: LOL kk, armpit hair.

Q: Haha, its freaking funny to see you get pissed off over small stuff on twitter hhahaahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
A: HAHA, what so funny? 1. I'm a very petty person, -.- 2. They are not small stuff! rahhh.

Q: Can you like? For say, eat my shit? (asked by xbensohx)
A: Can you like, go learn some basic english and learn how to phrase your questions? ARMPIT HAIR.

Q: ITS NOT ME WHO SAY THE JIBY LA WAH LAU
A: Okay lah, relac lah brudda.

-removed again, lol-
Yeah, okay whatever, good night.

2011-01-09T19:05:00.002+08:00

Hi everybody, my first post of the new year!
YEAH VERY EXCITED RIGHT.
Okay yeah, whatever.

So, school's begun.
MST papers are all back, except for MICE, cause of the presentations.
Tomorrow's my turn to present.
We're gonna dress up like WOW.
Yeah, like seriously, we'll blow your heads off.
Okay yeah, whatever again.
MST results are back.
And here, they are, if you're the kaypo sort and really wanna know.
GOM - 70.
HRM - 87.
MR- 76.
Overall, no Cs so I'm kinda satisfied.
I think I'm gonna get a C for MICE though.
But when taking a look at my class ranking, I'm not quite satisfied.
Perhaps I didn't study enough.
Exams will be here VERY VERY soon.
And I've got to work hard.
All the typical stuff, yup.

If the opportunity comes tonight.
I guess I'm going to do it.
Okay yeah, whatever.

TIME FOR FORMSPRING Q&A
So sorry if you asked questions like ages ago and it took me till now to reply you.
HAHA.
Here goes.
Q: happy new year hpy. :D
A: Happy new year HPY! HAHA OMG THIS IS LIKE 9 DAYS LATE.

Q: Pua ji by
A: Bensoh, only you spell jiby like this. ._. Don't hate on me if not I tell Reney.

Q: you should have a new post for this year!
A: Hi yekai, back from NS eh? Yeah here the post is, COME ON CHEER, YAY!

Q: yay meet dixon yay gai gai yay k
A: yayyyyy! HAHA got time go shopping again when I get pay yah :D

Alrighto that's all.
Back to portfolio now, bai!

Formspring Q&A + Weekly Schedule

2010-12-27T09:31:00.003+08:00

HELLOOOO.
I'm back from Malaysia manz.
So many things happened there.
Let me give you a 5 point summary.

1. I spent the whole trip working on PP. ._.
2. I did not visit the theme park or whatever.
3. I almost got into the casino.
4. My brother fell sick.
5. Someone died at the clinic there. RIP.

So anyway, formspring Q&A.
Only 3 questions (or whatever you call those things without question marks) this time.
But ah whatever.

Q: How big are your balls?
A: I've got basketball, tennisball, table tennis ball at home. All normal size lo -.-

Q: I'm totally gonna use your formspring as tagboard. HAHA. :/
A: HAHA, yeah that's the purpose of my formspring on my blog. I don't want cbox. full of spammers.

Q: Fuck you ah bodoh
A: Fuck you too. Kthxbuy.

So now, my schedule for the week.
Kinda hectic cause I'd be going out everyday from tomorrow all the way to the new year.
So I better write it somewhere so I can remember or something.
27/12/10 - Final touches to PP & do MICE.
28/12/10 - Meeting Philfit to do MICE at I have no idea where.
29/12/10 - Meeting zehzeh to go nomnom at I have no idea where either. Some cheapo kopitiam? yay!
30/12/10 - Meeting Dickson to go gaigai nomnom at FarEastPlaza, yay!
31/12/10 - Meeting Cheryl to go out nom&wastetime at I have no idea where. yay!

So for now...
Back to projects!
~___________~

Formspring questions & answers!

2010-12-20T11:04:00.004+08:00

HELLO.
Since I'm waiting for MICE group mates to come to Causeway Point and I've got like nothing to do now, I'm gonna blog.
WOOHOO.
EXCITED RIGHT, YEAH I KNOW.

First, Formspring Q&A.
Got lots of lame questions by lame people.
But ah well, it keeps me occupied so keep them coming!

Q: ttm de bahzxzxczczczxc
A: I totally understand...

Q: OH NANA WATS MY NAME?!
A: Oh nana, tanyekai o:

Q: ALLO! If you think that is me, you are wrong! Guess who am i? HAHA.
A: Stop asking who are you, slap your face. k you're in army now, you won't get to see this, but ah well.

Q: Why are you so cute!
A: O_O. lol. isit? orh k lor, thanks.
I SWEAR I DIDN'T ASK THIS EVEN THOUGH I AM THICK SKINNED.

Q: Siao, anime freak.
A: _l_ LOL, I spam your formspring then you know.

Q: Tell me i buff or not
A: Nope, quite fat actually.

Q: tight ass
A: Yup, I know.

LOL, can you all ask questions that make me unable to identify who you are.
Some are like totally not questions.

So that's that...
We're into the 2nd week of the holidays.
Shitz.
And so much work is left undone.
This is it.
Okay, blogging bout school work is so lame.
And I bet you don't care either, HAHA.
Kay so let's move on.

I'm celebrating Christmas today, so excited, yes.
Like, 5 days before the actual day.
And at the same time, Linus' birthday.
HAHA, k, reason for it being so special is cause we haven't had such a large scale class outing in a long time.
Okay, maybe it's just half the class but at least it's not just the 5 gays of the class.
And there's gonna be this gift exchange which I kinda lame.
Cause I told them to buy presents less than $5 just for the sake of exchanging.
I'm gonna buy chocolates, no creativity, but er, whatever.
Okay, I'd do a proper post with pictures when I'm done with the outing.

So, about my current life.
It's kinda nothing but just rotting at home.
);<>

2010-12-19T00:34:00.000+08:00

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming.

Kbye,

2010-12-17T10:23:00.003+08:00

It's finally Friday of the 1st week of the holidays.
LIKE, FRIDAY.
Okay, this update is just to tell myself how much time I have left for that 4 huge projects I have on hand.
Not to mention UCCD yet.
Er, so this update is about my plans for the rest of the holidays.
Stalkers, stalk me.
K sorry, not funny.

Just received the information sent by Huiru & Isabella for PP.
Isabella sent to 28 pages worth of size 10 information.
): guess my weekend's gonna be spent "wisely" by reading that.
Kinda sad huh.
Nope, I'm not complaining.
I just...
Okay I'm complaining. .__.
Guess what, my part of the PP information is not even done yet.
This is it.

Er, finally, my schedule.
A reminder to myself to keep to it,
18/12/10 - Meet for GOM/Research on MICE logistics.
18-19/12/10 - Finish the PP powerpoint slides, hopefully.
21/12/10 - 04(somehow) Christmas party & that fag's birthday.
22/12/10 - Meeting Bella/HR for PP slides confirmation.
23/12/10 - DAY OFF, but with so much work, I just have yet to put something here. ):
24-26/12/10 - Byebye work, byebye Singapore.
27/12/10 - Back to projects, zzz.
28/12/10 - 3/1/11 - TBC.

So lazy to type this any further.
I'm so late already.
Ciao peeps.

2010-12-13T22:05:00.002+08:00

I'm finally posting, AGAIN!
Read my previous posts.
I bet they all start like this post.

So, for whatever reason did I decide to post again today?
I just watched the final episode of The Amazing Race (TAR) 17!
Yeah, as usual, I get to hyped up when it comes to TAR.
And for the first time, an all-female-team won the race.
So who came in first?
-drum roll-
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NAT & KAT!
Amazing people they are.
Being doctors, they totally owned the last leg with how meticulous they were.
One of the tasks was to match their greeters for every leg of the race to the leg they went to.
They had to refer from a screen which had 100+ faces on it.
So, they actually took notes of each and every leg they went to, the country, the date, etc.

Okay, enough of TAR 17.
Here's TAR 18.
It's an all-stars season and it's gonna be so damn amazing.
It's gonna feature teams that could have won the race, and also, favourites.
There's gonna be Margie & Luke (The deaf kid), Sam & Dan, Harlem Globetrotters, Gary & Mallory and Kevin & Michael.
Looking forward to that oh-so-awesome season.

Now comes the not so happy part of my life. -.-
You may stop reading here.
.
.
.
Unlike TAR, life hasn't been very amazing.
Has been kinda pointless lately, leading to pointless thinking.
I find myself so pathetic.
Sometimes, when I take a look in the mirror, I can't help but just sigh.
Sometimes, I wish I was someone else.
Someone who doesn't have so much flaws like I do.
Someone that wouldn't have to care so much about things I care about.
Some things cannot be changed though, no matter how hard we try.
But I just keep trying, which just leads to more disappointment.
It's just not within our span of control.
I really don't know why I've to live with so much of bad in me.
And there is just nothing I can do but feel useless and say FML.
Sigh.

That's all.
Ciao folks.

Demoralised

2010-12-07T18:39:00.002+08:00

3 papers have gone by.
And 1 more to go.
For the past 3 papers, I've been trying my best to study.
And I've been trying to study before even others did.
But when I got the paper, I didn't know what to do with it.
I didn't know how to answer all the questions.
I didn't know anything.
I just flunked it.

MICE was disgusting.
I was confident for HRM, but only to realize that it wasn't as easy as I thought it would be.
GOM was hell, but I managed to remember everything, by today.
Well, almost everything.
And when I got the paper, the only thing I didn't memorize, came out.
And everything I didn't know, came out.

I really don't know if I should study hard for the next paper.
Should I start now, or should I start tomorrow, like the rest?
Should I study hard and be disappointed or not care and be disappointed?

Can't believe how stupid I am...
._.
Okay, I'd study.

2010-12-01T21:22:00.002+08:00

HELLO!
It's been ages since I last blogged.
Haven't been a very active blogger.

In the midst of MSTs now, disastrous MSTs.
MICE paper ended today, and it was the worst MST paper I ever had, next to FBM.
I seriously went mind blank, sigh.
Guess I didn't study hard enough.
I hope my projects pull me up.
Better work real hard for them.
I hope Xiuwen (who's sorta new to the class) can work will with us.
Else it'd be the end of MICE.

Ah well.
Time for some formspring Q&A!

Q: this is fizzy the other one is not me...so confident hor...sms me when u free...needa ask something =)
A: I'm very sure that was you... );

Q: Hows ur sister doing?
A: _l_. LOL. >___<.

Q: );< Where did your tagboard go, yo! OHHH AND GUESS WHO I AM! :D
A: JEANOOOO! It's you right? I removed my tagboard cause got like 1304058045 spam with virus links.

Ayight!
That's the end of this post.
Till next time!
BEHBEH!

2010-11-14T22:06:00.004+08:00

Can't think of anything to blog about.
So I guess I'll just formspring to keep this thing alive.
Thank you for asking those questions! :D

1. test tes one two is this working!! LOL... GUESS WHO!!
A: FIZZYWANDY! I'm pretty confident I'm right.

2. what's happening on the 19th of nov!!
A: ZEHZEH IS COMING BACK HOME! :D

Anyway, celebrated Keith's birthday today.
Had 2 cakes for him.
The first was made by my brother and sister, using Nutella, Peanut Butter & Bread.
It looked kinda pretty with all that Skittles on it!
The "cake" was supposed to be a decoy, making Keith think that we were celebrating his birthday shabbily.
But the "cake" was kinda overdone and looked way nicer than expected.

Oh well.
Played Monopoly Deal & did a little of the ASEAN exhibit today.
Kinda wasted our time though.
Hope we do well though.

Ayeight, bye!

Formspring questions & answers!

2010-11-10T17:46:00.002+08:00

I realised that even though I put my formspring "board" there, people who read this don't get to see a reply.
So, I've decided to start adding Formspring Q&A posts to my blog!
I'm just doing this for entertainment.
I'm clear that people don't really ask me questions.
Oh well.

1. hi
A: Hello? Is this even a question?

2. IS JOCELYN AWSUMZ
A: Nope. xD

3. Idiot how can you not think I'm awesome I tell you all my secrets (asked by jocelynzxc)
A: WHAT SECRETS HUH!!

End.
Ciao.

Envious.

2010-11-09T23:21:00.003+08:00

It's such a weird thing, how people can be close to another, and the next moment, becoming strangers, or close to that.
I remember having this friend, this close friend.
We used to hang out, go buy stuff and go swimming together, even after I left Riverside, for awhile.
We shared our woes, that we never did share with others.
But now, we do none of the above.
And I realised, that we only contact each other when we have no one else for company.
I've been trying my best to keep this friendship going.
But it's not easy.
My friend has gone to a different school, met new friends and got on with life.
And new friends are always fresher than old ones, aren't they?
Perhaps this friendship, which I foolishly thought was something to be treasured, was nothing at all to my friend.
Are friends perhaps just stepping stones to your future?
Perhaps its time, time to move on with life.
So what's this all about?
I'm upset that those people out there, made a new friend, a friend that I lost.

Ah well.
If only that friend would know bout all this.
Time to get going.
Good night.

2010-11-08T22:07:00.002+08:00

I've got people stalking my blog now.
And I've got to be mindful of what I say here.
Else someone would start calling me a cyber bully.
Ha-ha-ha.

Went to school pretty early today, to pass someone's birthday present.
I reached the "bridge" at like 0735.
And because I reached early, I had lots of time to myself, just looking and observing things around me.
As usual, I observed people walking by.
And I bet you people would do that too, that is, if you're waiting for someone there.
So I looked at different people, comparing them to me.
And I thought to myself.
Some have things I do not have, and things I'd never get.
But there are others who don't have what I have.
An optimist would always feel that there is always someone that they're better than, and that they should be glad of what they have or who they are.
A pessimist, and perhaps at the same time, a perfectionist, may feel that they deserve better and will always say the same thing: "FML".
And it seems, up till this point, that I'm the latter of the both.

Today, my friend told me something.
Something that I may consider doing in my life, because I felt it made sense after thinking about it.
I swore I wouldn't blog about him, but I still did.
He said, "Your life would not be as complicated if you choose not to see it as being complicated."
And perhaps, I'm just being extremely paranoid.
I should think about this...
But that doesn't mean that this friend of mine is worth my time blogging about.

I realised that after working, I kinda lost my motivation to do any work, for school.
And tonight, I gave up on commanding heights, and decided not to do the summary.
All i wish I could do now is to stay at home and think.
And maybe I will get advice, somehow, somewhere, from someone.
Ah well...

I had a dream a few days ago.
To be precise, 2 days ago.
I dreamt of someone.
I had a clear vision of how that person looked like, but it's kinda disappearing now.
And I'm sure I've never seen that person.
But she was so important in my dream.
And when I woke up, I really hated myself for waking up at 0600 for no apparent reason.
The time spent in the dream was really... magical.
Sounds like Inception, doesn't it?
HAHAHA, if only that would happen.

Alright, my time's up!
Ciao.
Let tomorrow be a better day...

2010-11-07T22:08:00.003+08:00

I hate it when someone claims to know everything, when he has experienced none of it.
All he has heard of is stereotyping.
All he knows is to discriminate without sparing a thought.
You know nothing.
So please, just keep your comments to yourself...

The final day of work's over.
It was kinda frustrating, kinda fun at the same time.
People behaving like idiots.
People who didn't know how to listen to instructions.
They all made my day, someway or another.
However, it didn't really end on a pleasant note.
At the start of the day, I was unintentionally sabotaged by the manager.
This lady asked me to take care of her bedsheets for her.
But when I wasn't looking, he asked Linus to put the bedsheets back.
And when the lady came back to find her bedsheets missing, I got a serious scolding from her.
And he still asked me to apologize.
What an idiot.
Like Linus said, everyone there are idiots.
They do things with no sense at all, and cannot understand simple logic.
Leaves people so frustrated.

I was reminded of many things today.
Things from the past.
And I think I really should get over this.
True, there are always people who have been through far worse than this.
And I know I have to appreciate what I've got.
But humans are greedy, they always want better.
Well, I'm human and I can't seem to be satisfied with my life.
But it's what god gave me, and it's what I have to learn to treasure.
Ah well.

...
Where is the life that was once here?

2010-11-04T19:51:00.001+08:00

My first ever starbucks!
...

Okay, keep your comments to yourself.

And yes, MONOPOLY DEAL! :D
\Just a random update.
Work tomorrow, bye!

2010-11-02T19:29:00.003+08:00

We're halfway through the 3rd week of school.
And I'm already feeling exhausted.
Worse, I've got work this weekend, and finish my tutorials at the same time.
This is it.
On the bright side, I'm gonna earn big bucks!
$10/hour and I'm extremely satisfied.

I realised that my blog is nothing but rants bout how my life sucks.
Unfortunately, I don't know how to turn this around.
My life really does suck and I need to complain.

I was looking at my old photos just now, and man did I look ugly.
Yes, I know, sounds like I've got seriously low self esteem.
I admit, I'm not proud of myself, even though I say things like, "We should be proud of what we have, cause we're definitely better in a way."
But words don't mean anything, actions do.
Mr Ronald was asking me what I wrote for 1 of my tutorial questions today.
And so I told him, I wrote rubbish.
Being the usual Mr Ronald, he questioned me, with a bit of sarcasm.
He asked if I thought my answer was rubbish.
I didn't know what to say, so I just read it. =.=
Then he said I should be more confident, because my answer isn't rubbish.
Okay...

I shall end your boredom here abruptly.
Bye!

2010-10-26T20:48:00.002+08:00

Haven't blogged in ages!
And I can see my chat box getting flooded by spam. ._.
If this continues, I shall remove it.
This is kinda like my, personal space anyway.

Let me tell you guys why I haven't been blogging.
I kinda started feeling sick on the 4th October, with persistent fever and other minor ailments.
So I thought maybe I lacked sleep or something.
Lack of sleep from the release of results, how stupid.
But it wasn't the lack of sleep.
I went to visit the family doctor for 3 times in total.
The first time, the stupid doctor didn't even check and gave me medicine according to my complaints(What's the right word?).
I knew the medicine wasn't going to help.
I've been waking up in the middle of the night, wetting my bed, WITH SWEAT.
And indeed, the medicine didn't work.

So I decided to go back to the clinic, but this time, with a different doctor on shift duty.
This time, the doctor did a proper diagnosis and told me I may have some kinda chest infection.
So I was given different medicine this time round.
I thought it would work, but the next day was the class chalet, and I couldn't afford to miss it. ._.
So, being the usual stupid me, I went.
And it got worse.
The persistent fevers came on and off, 1 hour, I had no fever, the next hour I did.

So, after 3 days of fun(more like suffering), I went back to the doctor for the 3rd time.
And this time, I went for an X-ray at Tan Tock Seng.
I spent like 4 hours there in total.
But I did an X-ray and found that I had slight Bronchitis, but the doctor didn't know what was causing the fever and sent me for a blood test.
I felt like a real man during the blood test man.
The doctor stuck the needle inside without anesthetic (unlike during blood donations), and started pumping blood out of me.
Strangely, it felt like nothing at all, even after drawing one syringe-ful of blood.
Oh, TELL ME I'M A REAL MAN BABEH!
Oh, and I saw this disgusting incident there.
There was this man on drip and when the pack of glucose finished, his blood flowed into the tube.
He was like shouting for the nurse to go over after that.
I told you I was a real man.
So, 2 hours later, the blood test results came out.
And luckily, nothing major man, just an infection in the liver.
I took the medicine that was prescribed and I'm alive and kicking now!

So I've got a follow up tomorow, which makes me unable to attend school.
Have fun in school peeps!

Okay, and if you were interested in my GPA, here goes!
FBM - B.
IHRO - C. (_l_)
BLAW - B.
TTP - B+.
FMAH - DIST.
PS - DIST.
2 freaking distinctions.
Man, I'm smart.
Semester GPA: 3.095.
Cumulative GPA: 2.986 (_l_ still no 3.)

So that's all for today man!
Ciao! :D

2010-10-06T12:37:00.002+08:00

Woooah, I haven't visited my own blog for a long time.
And when I decided to come today, I saw a few people who commented on my tagboard.
People whom I don't know.

When I first read the comments, I felt so happy, people are appreciating my writing.
Or you may call it, ranting.
Oh well, but then I realized that they may very well just be links with viruses. -.-
HAHA, what the heck.
Then again, if you were real people, I thank you for visiting my blog and giving such positive comments! (even though I don't know how you got here).
It certainly made my day!
And I've decided to change the way I type in my entries to make it more... reader friendly. ._.
If anyone's reading it, that is.

Today's entry will start with updates on my life.
First and foremost, I found a job, or I can say, my friend, Sok Ling, found me a job!
The pay's not really satisfying, but at least I've got something to do during the holidays.
The job scope's like selling tickets at Orchard at $10 each, for 8 hours, with a pay of $30.
Which means $3++ an hour.
I earn $1 for every ticket I sell though.
So come on people, come support me please!
Imma be working on all Saturdays of October except for the last, and the 3rd Sunday of October.
4 days, that makes $120, basic pay.
Okay, quite a few things I can buy with $120.
I'm not considering saving this money though.

Next, I'd be talking bout the class chalet!
It's actually coming up in 5 days!
So excited man, but we haven't had any activities lined up.
And no one's like initiating to plan anything.
So I think I've got to start.
Any ideas for things to do at a chalet?
It's at Pasir Ris, and there's nothing much you can do there except for biking/roller blading.
Suggestions please! :D

Lastly, I've decided to start a video blog.
It's way cooler that way.
And who knows, I may be the next Ryan Higa or KevJumba!
Okay, wait long long.
But I'm serious on starting a video blog. -.-

Kay, gotta go!
Bai.

I AM EIGHTEEN.

2010-09-23T17:34:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling lazier and lazier to blog.
But I feel like I'm obliged to blog, so I shall do it.
In someway, it's a form of disciplining myself.
/sidenote: I feel so cranky today.

So I'm finally 18, and I will go take driving lessons soon!
Let me tell you how I celebrated my birthday.
-breathes in-
This is gonna be such a long post.
I will definitely give you a piece of candy if you manage to read the whole damn thing!
I shall skip the part on my family celebration and move on to my friends.

ONE
Went out Sokling for some outing at 313 & Cineleisure!

Had lunch at KFC, and she bought me a slice of cake!
So we had cake at KFC too.
It's my favourite kinda cake where it was nothing, but chocolate.
Tastes like diabetes! o:

Then proceeded to watch Resident Evil, which was not that bad the first time I watched it.
Except for a few parts where I had to shun from the screen when I could feel something scary coming. -.-
I liked the fighting-in-the-shower part best. (:
After the film, we went for ice cream at Maggie Moos!

It's like Dark Chocolate & Frozen Strawberries, super sweet tasting.
Cheesecake Bake was so much better~
Because there was no arcade at 313, we walked all the way to Plaza Sing.
And at the arcade, we spent 6 bucks to complete Bishi Bashi, 22 levels.
Kinda pathetic, but yeah, had fun!
So after arcade, we went on home!

TWO
So the next day... Ben & Vincent asked me out to Causeway Point.
In the end, Vincent didn't turn up. );
But he had some valid reason, which wasn't very valid, but ah whatever, nevermind.
Went for lunch (even though I already, secretly had lunch at home) @ Macdonalds.
After lunch, went to watch Cats & Dogs: Revenge of Kitty Galore.
I realised that almost all my outings are nothing but movies...
We waiting 1 hour+ at Banquet before we could even enter -.-
Super exhausted even before I went in.
The show was pretty lame.
After the show, Ben & I stood around, not knowing where to go, in the end deciding to go home.
Oh and I suddenly recalled something.
I was on facebook the same day, and I found out that Ben went to Teckhwee's chalet through some pictures.

So they were busy & happy celebrating someone else's birthday, forgetting mine.
Thanks dudes.
No, I'm as petty as you think I am.
I give up on any hope man.
To think I used to be stupid enough to put in my all in this friendship, where I wasn't anything at all.
And no, I'm not going to the next chalet as well.
I don't know any of you all man, except for that few of you.

THREE
Moving on...
The class fags got the honour of celebrating the actual day with me! :D
Went for a chocolate workshop in the morning, which I was 40minutes late for, even after spending 20 damn bucks on a cab. (WTF.)
Oh damn, I forgot to take pictures of those awesome chocolates.
Linus & I were sharing a table.
And we had lots of leftovers (because the norm is 3 to 1 table) and tried to swallow all that chocolate and chocolate syrup.
It felt so disgusting, we were actually spooning the chocolate from the pot and swallowing it. ._.
In the end, we still made damn pretty chocolates.
Linus & I went to Marina Square to book the K-box room after that.
So Linus, Nigel, Keith & Melvin went for a K-box session!
It was damn funny, no pictures though.
After that, Peiying came over to pass me my soaps, which I will blog about later!
Then the 5 guys and Peiying went to watch Resident Evil, AGAIN.
The whole movie session was so boring man.
I could like memorize the storyline.
After that, Peiying had to go home, so we went to Just Acia for dinner.
Okay, so the guys gave me 3/4s from Bugis, thanks dudes.
The 3/4s look super beng though, not my style.
...
(I'm not beng you know).

FOUR
The final celebration I had was with the E-Lights(Pui Fun, Kassie, Isabella, Huiru)!
It was the celebration that I was most surprised with, really.
On Tuesday, they wanted to go to Chinese Garden Mid-Autumn Festival celebration.
And so I went along, with a little bit of hope they may say Happy Birthday or something.
Cause apparently, some of them forgot my birthday too ~.~
So anyway, we were there to celebrate Mid-Autumn Festival.
So we lighted a few lanterns and pierced them through the tree.
Kassie's like an expert at this.
Poor tree.

After that, I don't know who came up with the idea to have a candle design competition.
So, Kassie and Huiru were in one group, Puifun and I in the other.
We decided to compete on who could make the best star shaped formation with candles.
So when Puifun and I were done, I heard them start singing a birthday song.
And when I looked up, Kassie & Huiru were holding a muffin with a candle on it.
On the floor was candles, forming the words, Hapi Bday.
I was so touched, I was gonna cry, NOT.
But anyway, I felt that it was so nice of them.
So we went around taking pictures around chinese garden after that.
Here's one with a dragon sculpture made outta plants!

I so look like Jinsheng here. .___.
And a wishing tree, where I made a wish, without paying!

My 18th birthday was by far, the best I've ever had.
Thank you everyone!

So anyway, I had my disney briefing yesterday.
I'd be in the 2nd batch, which leaves singapore in September next year, if I get through the interviews.
And I have to complete the application form by Monday.
Interview's on the 1st day of school. 18th/19th October.
I hope I get through! :D

Lastly, I wanna talk about the soaps I got from Peiying!
I tried 3 soaps so far.
1. Honey Beer
2. Peppermint Twist
3. Sea Salt & Seaweed.
By far, I think the third one seems to be the best.
It has exfoliating properties, making you look so damn clean after the shower even though you do feel a bit salty.
I touched my back and I felt so... SHINY. (.___. err...)
Maybe you guys can consider ordering man, it really is worth the money!

Okay, that's the end of the post.
As promised, you can come get candy from me!
Or maybe I shall make chocolates for you. :D

2010-09-14T21:47:00.002+08:00

YEAHHHHH!
EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVERRRRR!
2 semesters of massive studying to go, ohyeahhh.
And I'm off to my Disney(if I even get there)!
I'm pretty much looking forward to the interview.
Hope to get updates on the Disneyworld trip soon...

Went to look for Pat Moreira today, to get the BLAW project marks.
When we got in, she told us that we all did very badly, so I was kinda disappointed.
Like, after all that chiong-ing late night and stuff.
And especially when I was so frustrated doing something I didn't understand, but had to go all the way for.
But eventually, Linus, Sokling, Shishi and I got 74, something I'm pretty much satisfied with.
So yeah, kinda happy.
Especially when Linus told me good job, felt like all that blood and sweat spent typing paid off.
Unlike some order modules like FBM & TTP...
-mumbles-.

Gonna go shopping with Ahsoh tomorrow since exams are over.
Bye!

2010-09-06T17:22:00.002+08:00

I can't believe you lied. especially when it would be better if you told the truth.
I lost my trust in you.
It might seem like nothing to you at all.
But what's gonna come up after this?

Believe me, I'm not being oversensitive.

The Ninth Month

2010-09-03T22:18:00.008+08:00

After 11 months, it's finally September!
So many birthdays going on in September, including mine.
-giggles-
Just 17 more days before that very day.
But first, I've got to get past this stressful period.

Though the past 3 birthdays haven't been happy occasions, I hoping this birthday would be better.
It's kinda funny I'm doing a post with regards to my birthday.
It just shows how I don't have anything to talk about.

THEN AGAIN.
Imma make a wishlist, hoping that someone will get something for me. ^^
Here it goes~
1. I've been dying to get denim skinny jeans for a long time.
2. Oh, and Topman carrot jeans are kinda cool too!
3. And I've been having this liking of wearing T shirts inside shirts/hoodies, and I want different kinds and patterns of shirts!
4. ~~Ohh, and I want sleeveless plain T shirts (or what you call singlets) to replace the T shirts I wear inside.~~
5. ~~The denim vans I saw at Queensway's damn hot.~~
6. The Topman Sailor T shirt's damn cute too!
7. ~~The Teddy-bear-in-spectacles T shirt I saw at Northpoint's pretty cute too!~~
8. I've been wanting to buy the 3/4s I saw at Bugis for a long time already, DAMN.
9. More earrings/studs that look HOT, and perhaps 1 more piercing.
10. I love taking pictures and I need a good camera!
11. All the songs I've heard from Pixie Lott's album, Turn it Up are pretty good.
12. Vampire's suck sounds like a pretty nice movie, watch it with me? :D
13. Somebody to love. HAHAHAHAHA!
14. And I want, badly, no, I need, to go for the Orlando Internship @ .

HAHAHA.
AND...
~~I know I'm not gonna get any of those.~~
I can't believe someone actually got me something from the list!
Thanks Ah Soh!
But I know, I WILL get into the Disney internship.

Okay, enough rubbish.
SJAB BBQ tomorrow.
Wii & Mahjong session @ Pat's house tomorrow.
FMAH in 2 days.
I can't believe I'm doing this.

Drunk in class

2010-08-31T22:07:00.004+08:00

Had the wine seminar today!
Was kinda looking forward to this since last weekend already.
So yeah, I kinda had fun today.
I shall do a post on the wines we drank yeah!

We had a short lecture before the wine tasting.
So after the lecture, we had the opportunity to taste 5 different types of wines.
3 whites and 2 reds in total!
We started off with the whites.
The first one tasted pretty bad, perhaps cause I never drunk any before.

Look at the colour of it...
Sniff it...
Swirl it...
Swallow it!

The 2nd wine, which was also white wine, was corked and was opened by Isabella.
Ehh, she was damn pro leh.
Even Mr. Ronald asked if she had experience in this kinda thing.
Even he had troubles opening the 2nd bottle but it was worth all the effort.
The second wine was the best tasting one, from Italy if I'm not wrong.

The 3rd bottle was red wine, and was corked and was opened by me!
Heh, it was pretty easy opening this bottle cause it wasn't properly stored.
The cork wasn't stained so it was easier or something, along that line.
It was not good either, but at least better than the first (:

The 4th bottle was the last bottle of red wine, which was opened by Tony!
So cool eh, we get to open our own bottles of wine :D

The last bottle of wine was another white wine!
It was a really special wine because it is claimed to be the first ever wine produced in India.
Cool eh?
Even the logo looks very Indian already.

It was the oldest wine we had!
Which was supposed to taste the best.
I still preferred the 2nd wine though.
Heh, look at the back label!
First ever wine leh!!

So... after all that wine, I couldn't even walk straight.hough.
HAHAHA, no la, not that pathetic.
Everyone was so high after the whole session.
Almost everyone's face were reddened.
Some were horribly red.
It was really quite funny.
People hugging each other...
People laughing at each other.
People scolding each other.
It was really so... bemusing.

After that, Nigel and I went to Cineleisure for dinner @ Pastamania! :D

I had Shannon baked rice!
It wasn't as nice as expected.
Tasted kinda bland D:

But way before dinner, we went to 313@Somerset to get this! :D
Kay, I know I look so act cute, but that's not the point.
TEENAGE DREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Even the CD itself looks so cute.
And the highlight, it smells like freaking bubblegum!
It doesn't at all, smell like cotton candy (>______<)!
OMGOMGOMG. HAHAHA.
-high-

...
I'm still not sober.
Good night! :D

2010-08-21T15:08:00.001+08:00

Would you just move on with your life and stop making mine miserable?

A fool.

2010-08-19T22:41:00.004+08:00

It sucks to find yourself asking yourself, "Who or what am I living for?"
So I've been asking myself this question.
And honestly, I don't know the answer.
How about everyone reading this ask yourself the same question?
Who do you live for?
Why are you alive?

I'm pretty sure at least 70% of you would not be able to come up with an answer.
I came to a decision that the reason I'm alive is cause I'm afraid of death.
Pathetic isn't it?
Sounds like some emotional post again, pfft.
Why's my life filled with these pointless thoughts?

Some people live for themselves, with a passion, and a goal in life.
Some people live for others, satisfying people around them, so they will feel satisfied themselves.
What do I have to live for?
Friends play an important part in my life.
They were what made me to who I am today.
But they can't be there forever.
There isn't any point living for friends.
Friends who will one day take you for granted.
Friends who will one day make use of you.
No friend last forever.

Sometimes, I find myself sitting here feeling lonely.
Lonely to the extent that I'm constantly checking my phone to see if anyone texts me.

I realised I've been indulging in false hope for quite time.
And it's time to draw the line and wake up.
I knew that not drawing the line would have me ending up feeling as stupid as before.
Maybe its destined to be the way you should.
Maybe forcing something that cannot be is really impossible.
I don't know how long more am I going to try to fight this.
But I'm not going back to my old ways.
I just need the determination to keep this going.

Someone help me. (>___<)

The day @ FCBC

2010-08-15T22:05:00.002+08:00

Woke up in the morning feeling like shit.
I felt so... musty this morning.
I don't know why musty, but it just felt like the perfect word to describe how I was feeling.
I still managed to drag myself outta bed though.
So I went out and took the long train ride to Expo.

Expo doesn't bring back any good memories.
It reminds me of standing for hours trying to sell keyboards.
It reminds me of the awkward moments spent there.
But Imma make these things change.

Met up with Abigail's friends first.
I thought it was gonna be another awkward moment, but turns out to be better than expected.
They were pretty hospitable people, especially Sirbest.
So I didn't feel as awkward as the previous times I went there.
So... I only met my primary 1 friend after service.
So after service, we went to Changi for lunch, where it was the first time I heard so much crap in my life -.-
But it was great :D
Let me share some with you...

S: Last time I kena bird shit like twice leh.
A: You know why? -HAHAHAHA- You look like tree.
D: Birds don't shit on trees, they shit on the floor.
A: Then he looks like the floor. -HAHAHAHHA-
D: No he looks like mud (didn't quite get this part).

And 1 more!
S: One day we go Marina Barrage picnic la, always go lan.
X: Go there do what? Eat grass?
S: Eat grass later the somebody come tell you, "eh, boy, cannot eat grass here".
X: Aiya, D eat halfway, look at the man then mooo, -inserts stupid face here- then the person will know he crazy already, then will say" okok you eat".
X: -constantly moos-

HAHA, kinda enjoyed myself today.
:D

Okay, Imma end of with two random quotes:
"You are the master of your own life."
&
"Learn to be geigei if you want to survive in this world."

BYE!!

2010-08-14T15:13:00.005+08:00

SONGS UPDATED!

Just got a haircut today.
I look like Rihanna + a monkey.
HAHAHA, you'll find out when you see me.
I feel so... exposed and naked.
.______."

I'm going to church tomorrow again.
This time, to meet my long lost Primary 1 good friend.
Primary 1, kinda ancient.
But after talking to each other for some time, felt that kinda friendly feeling.
Ok, HAHAHA WTH. -.-
Yeah, so tomorrow's the day.
Back to FCBC (>___<)
I hope I don't bump into him.
Shall update bout it tomorrow if I have the time. :D

Till then, bye! :D

2010-08-12T22:29:00.002+08:00

It's a long time since I blogged even though there was lots to say.
And I'm guessing that people no longer visit my blog anymore.
But that's alright.
I can express myself better without having to think about how others look at me.

Let me first start with my frustrations with TTP, and at the same time, myself.
The holidays have finally come, but not quite, since the exams are like 3 weeks later.
And that means it's time to study.
TTP just ended yesterday with the final walking tour, by us.
However, it didn't turn out as expected.
Honestly, I think we did well, or maybe alright.
But Chih Wee told us we were weak, in our faces.
And he took 15minutes just to mark each and every one of us down.
The only good thing he said about our tour was how bubbly Puifun was.
It felt like a huge insult, really.
So haven't I done well enough?
Didn't we put in enough effort?
Perhaps so.
I agreed that I've been free riding a lot on this project.
But I have done my part doing research, trying to impress you with stories.
I bet the others did put in a lot of effort too.
I tried telling some stories, since he liked stories.
We did everything possible to impress him, but none of it worked.
The whole 15minutes was nothing but negative comments.
I was quite disappointed. -.-"
Even though it's just one project, it made me reflect on myself.

I used to be quite confident with how I presented in projects.
But now, teachers have been giving nothign but negative comments on the way I presented.
So what happened?

Okay, enough said about projects.
Life seems to have gone by faster, and at the same time, slower.
I don't know how to describe this feeling.
I don't know why I'm doing things I can't be bothered to do, things which I dread doing, things that make time slower.
But then again, looking back, it felt like I was in mercure just a few weeks back.
-.-
Now I'm here, waiting for the exams to happen.

And everytime, I would question myself about love.
Does it exist?
Sometimes, I can't feel the love that people describe a feeling as.
Here I am, waiting for a train.
A train that will take me faraway.
I know where I hope this train will take me.
But I can't be too sure.
But does it matter?
Do I even have you?

Something must be wrong with me.
I don't know what I'm saying here.
Just a random post to revive my blog :D
BYE~

2010-07-25T19:54:00.001+08:00

Have you ever thought and felt that life ain't as perfect as you think it is?

2010-07-23T22:27:00.000+08:00

WHO'S
WILLING
TO
BRING
ME
TO
SINGFEST
DAY 1?
PLEASE
PLEASE
PLEASE
(>___<)!

2010-07-08T20:07:00.003+08:00

Time for another update!
Went for blood donation drive today.
And I donated 450ml of my own blood!
The feeling you get from it is amazing.
So what if you lose 450ml of your blood?
You can save 3 lives with that.
It's not like your blood will disappear forever, it'd come back.
You'll really have to try it once to know what I mean.

Initially, Chang Hong, Jin Sheng and Linus decided that we should go together.
In the end, Chang Hong and Jin Sheng were not eligible and therefore there was only Linus and I left.
I had to first fill up some declaration form, to declare I had no HIV whatsoever.
After that, we had to get our blood pressure checked and stuff.
As it was okay, I moved on, where they checked if I had enough iron in my blood.
The process was by pricking my finger and collecting blood from there.
So that went well, and it was finally time for the actual thing.
I was first injected with some anesthesia, which hurt a bit.
Then, a needle of 1mm width was inserted into my vein.
I had to squeeze a stress ball for the blood to flow out.
After 10minutes, the whole process was done, yay!

So here are some pictures!
I only started taking pictures from the time the final tube was inserted into my arm.

Be nice to me, it's my first time!

Squeeze the stress ball! See the packet of blood below? @_@

Yessss, almost done! ^^

Wrap it up with this damn cute roller bandage. :D

We got these "souvenirs" as a form of gratitude. :D

Lost so much blood, time to replenish it! :D

Now time to unwrap it! ^^

When I took out the bandage, it started bleeding again, but after drying the wound, here we go! It's this small! So what do have to be afraid of?!

Go donate your blood today! :D
CCA points awarded somemore -.-

Kay, back to rehearsing for tomorrow's presentation, wish me all the best!
:D
Bye.

P.S. I updated my TTP marks! I know you're interested, scroll down (:

I've got issues.

2010-07-02T20:58:00.006+08:00

I guess everyone's sick and tired of staring at that darned post.
People like Nigel Chew have been complaining that it's nonsense or what -.-
So I've decided to do another post after ages.

MST results first!
FMAH - 81.
FBM - 60.
BLAW - 80.
IHRO - 59.5.
TTP - 70.
Overall, I'm quite satisfied with my results.
I haven't got back IHRO & TTP, but I promise I'd post my results once they're out.
LOOK AT ALL THE ZEROS.
Won't you get so insecure if you get this kinda grades?
1 mark less, your grade is gone.

I was quite disappointed in FMAH.
Yeah, some people might say, WTF, 81 still disappointed!
But I expected myself to do better, at least getting a 85 or above.
Well, highest scorer in class was surprisingly Nigel with a score of 85.
For a high score of 85, perhaps an 81 ain't that bad after all :D
FBM was hell.
Well, everyone did as badly, so I've got nothing to say.
BLAW was way better than expected.
I got an A which was really surprising.
I guess it was cause she marked real leniently.
Well, loads of projects coming up, better work real hard to do well in all of them.

Some people have been saying I've changed a lot ever since year 1.
Maybe so?
For the worse, for the better?
I don't quite know.
You may think that I've changed for the worse, but you don't quite know what I've been through.
I'm a very easily influenced person.
With the bad company, I dive along.
I've been through so much bullshit with no guidance at all.

2 days ago, I was disappointed by an SMS.
Things turn out a certain way for a certain reason.
I don't know what that particular reason is, but I guess it's my problem.

If only there was someone who could give me guidance. );
Bye.

The hardest thing ever: Love

2010-06-21T23:28:00.003+08:00

Love.
It's sugary, it's sweet.
It's a word word with a thousand meanings that one cannot describe.
It's feeling that melts you down, disabling you.
It's bullet that will shoot you down, when you're unaware of it.

Many stories of love in fairy tales.
Love at first sight.
Living happily forever after.

Come on, get back to reality.
What is love to many of us?
Some say it's everything.
Some say it's just what brings people together, creating a better world.
It's just a feeling.
A feeling of attraction towards another party.
It isn't the world.
We watch too much of drama, where people die from love, when they don't have it.
And we come to believe that behaving like people appearing on the television set is okay.
People have evolved from the past, where life was so simple.
Some don't know what love is, but claim to feel it, just because of the people around them.

Sometimes, I don't see why people are kicking a big fuss over relationship problems.
Breakups, rejection.
It's just one story in your life.
There will be many more.
Why worry about someone who's going to be your past?
Don't try get what you've lost back.
It's not going to happen.
There's a reason why didn't make it to your future.

There are things way more important than love.
Sometimes it's best that we make a decision that's right for us and not what we like best.
And by the right choice, it means defying what we really want.
'Cause what we want, is not necessarily right.
Defying love.
Maybe this is how people become cold and heartless.

When you've been through too much, the next time something the same happens, it'd be nothing to you.
It'd no longer be a challenge.
It'd no longer be special.

This time baby, I'd be bulletproof.

HAHA, I've been watching too much drama as well. -.-

Hey you there!
I know you know that you're you.
Though I'm not really good at managing this kinda stuff.
I'll try my best to make life special. (WTF AM I SAYING HAHAHAH).

Gosh, I sound like a pussy. );

2010-06-17T14:12:00.003+08:00

IT'S TIME TO BLOG!
With SOME pictures! ^^
It was Fizzy's Birthday yesterday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIZZY!
I don't know how many times I said that already.
We had plans yesterday, plans that weren't really plans.
Spent lots of money yesterday, real broke now T_T.

Had a mini Mahjong session at Patricia's house.
I won 3 games out of 7!
I never win when I play with them -.-

Went for lunch at Pastamania @ Cineleisure.
No more cheese sticks this time!
Wanted to have Crayfish Pasta but was too cheapo to afford it. T_T.

After lunch, we went to watch...

Yes, Prince of Persia!
Great movie, really worth watching, though they were kissing so abruptly. -.-

Went for ice-cream after the movie.
MAGGIE'S MOO! (?) @ 313!

Ice-cream doesn't have to look good to taste good.
The best ice-cream I've tasted.
Either it's good, or I'm damn suaku.
I had Cheesecake Bake! (the one on the bottom left)
There was Cheesecake Ice cream, Caramel, Cinnamon Biscuits & Strawberries (Fizzy's favourite)!
I forgot what Fizzy and Pat had.
Yekai had some horribly sweet Cotton Candy ice-cream.
There was some milk cream, M&Ms and marshmallow.
If you don't like sweet stuff, don't ever try that.
It'd suck.
Go try the ice-cream when you've got time!

Went back to Causeway Point for dinner after that.
After dinner, we went to the St John comp's place for cake!
We lighted the candles before Fizzy came. -.-
In the end, the candles melted before he came, and this was what became of the cake.

LOL, yes, very disgusting.
We had to dig up the wax before we could eat the cake.
So, the 4 of us had this huge cake.
And of course, around a quarter of it ended up on Fizzy's face! :D
Was damn full after that, so Fizzy decided to cab us all home.
AWWWW, SO NICE OF YOU.

That marks the end of his birthday celebration.
It's possibly the last time the 4 of us are going to meet up before Yekai goes to NS.
BYEBYE YEKAI.

/random...
Yekai: -sits beside Patricia's dog and whispers: "Go, go bite Fizzy!"
Fizzy: Yekai, I HEARD THAT!
HAHAHA, Okay, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIZZYWANDYKU!

I wonder why I'm all alone at home now, doing nothing.
Bye.

2010-06-10T17:51:00.002+08:00

The ordeal's finally over!
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
No, wait, it ain't no holidays yet.

Projects, projects and more projects.
I can't wait till the DTRM camp comes.
Hopefully, it would relieve me of some stress.
And some LF's birthday is coming up.
Celebration!
We've got to plan it this weekend, like seriously.
You're in for a blast! :D

So how were the papers?
Thinking about each and every of them makes me want to cry -.-
I shall elaborate 1 by 1.

TTP - Relatively easily, which increases the chances of negligent mistakes.
I totally forgot some codes that I memorised.
ID, supposedly Indonesia, made me think of Intercontinental Hotel.
BY, Belarus, and I filled in Berayzus.
Okay, many many more, not worth mentioning.

IHRO - Way easier than expected.
Everything I studied came out!
I'm hoping to get at least an 80 for IHRO.
The rest after IHRO was so bad that I'd rather not sit for the paper.

FBM - STUPID QUESTIONS ASKED EVERYWHERE.
Name 8 elements of a fine dining restaurant. (16marks)
Name 5 advantages and 3 disadvantages of a microwave oven. (16marks)
Name 8 menu pricing elements. (16marks).
These questions came from points, which really small font in the slides.
I didn't bother studying them as they didn't look significant.
Let's see how many marks my gibberish is worth upon 48.

FMAH - Easiest paper of all, or at least I thought so till today.
I could do every single question till the end.
But I realised all my answers were wrong after asking her how well we did today.
Surprisingly, she has finished marking all the papers.
And she told us, that our class had the highest class average of the cohort, 74.
Isn't that good news!
No it ain't, cause after she revealed some answers to us, I felt that I was those under 74.
);

BLAW - Average, I expected it to be that hard.
Well, I didn't really study for it, so no complaints.
I was already in holiday mood since yesterday.

Ah, whatever.
I don't know why I feel so tired.
Physically and emotionally.
._. time of the month.

Have to start with the IHRO report now.
Byebye. (:

ORLANDO/CANADA!

2010-06-02T20:33:00.002+08:00

NINETEEN DAYS TO GET THE NEW PHONE, DAMN!
It's okay, I can wait.
Good things are worth the wait. (:

DISNEYLAND INTERNSHIP!
This is the main purpose why I'm blogging, when I'm supposed to be studying.
Yes, study TTP.

Requirements for the programme is a minimum GPA of 3! :D
Mine's 2.94, just 0.06 away!
I WILL GET TO 3, BY THE END OF THIS YEAR!
Sure, going to Disney Orlando sounds cool.
Sure, studying at a university at California sounds awesome!

But hey!
Money makes the world go round!
The estimated total costs for the whole trip is $12,400, AFTER SUBSIDY.
Hell yeah.
It ain't cheap, and money's hard to earn.
I can't bear taking that sum of money from my parents, just to go to America for 6 months. );
I've got to reconsider.
Is everything worth to money?
Yes, it is a once in a lifetime opportunity.
TWELVE THOUSANDDDD.

T________T.
Let me think about it while studying TTP.

2010-05-31T19:46:00.002+08:00

Food and Beverage Management CA2 is finally over!
And we realised that our group actually has quite a lot of content, compared to other groups.
Looks like we've belittled ourselves, HAHAHA!
This calls for celebration.
Let's have some... duck rice for dinner!
-.- this is absolutely random.

My phone's down.
I have no idea why my SIM card isn't working.
It hangs every phone I put it in.
Worst of all, the nearest Starhub service centre is at Dhoby Ghaut.
Horrible sense of geographical segmentation.
I don't know when I would get the time to go all the way down there to fix the stupid problem.
Luckily, I'm going for Singtel soon.
Singtel better had service centres more widespread throughout Singapore. -.-
If not, they better not screw up as much as Starhub.
Okay, this means that, in the meantime, I don't have a phone that's functioning properly.
So, please do not text me and expect me to know you text-ed me.

HAHAHA.
I realised that I'm totally forgotten as an OC head.
Perhaps it's cause I really have got nothing to do in terms of planning.
Well, we medics would have the number 1 importance when the camp starts.
WOOT!

During FMAH today, the teacher told us about this trip to Bintan.
I'm kinda interested in it, so I'm going to sign up for it! :D
It ain't exactly a very fun trip, but more of a community service one.
Not expecting much fun.
All I want from the trip is to get more tanned, and to bond more with the classmates, who are able to pass the interview -.-
I don't even know if I can pass it.
Thinking way too ahead.

TTP's in 4 days.
And I haven't even started with the revision.
DOOMED.
I'm way to tired to do it today. T___T.
What to do?

2010-05-29T00:53:00.004+08:00

I'm lost.
I don't want to feel so different from the people in my class.

Had this truth or truth talk today with my class.
And I spoke to quite a few individuals today.
I got to know other people better.
Yes, I know about the type of people they liked today.
But I noticed that everyone has someone to be proud of.
Someone they can proudly say, I LIKE THIS PERSON!
Or them, being proud of themselves by saying, I don't want a relationship now!
But who do I have to be proud of?
Or, what can I be proud of?

I'm just someone who doesn't know where I stand?
I'm too sensitive at times.
I'm even too insensitive at times.
I'm immature.
I'm indecisive.
I can't give anyone any sense of security.
I don't want others to know how weak I can be, but how can I deny that I'm not?

Sometimes, I feel upset, upset that I can't do anything about myself.
Upset about anything around me.
And I try cheering myself up, by just acting crazy, or irritating people.
But people get offended.
I apologise, sincerely, and I promise I won't do it again.

I want to stop fighting this war that no one knows of.
Sure, I want to win this war.
But right from the start, I've already lost.
All I'm trying to do is to get myself back up.
So what comes after that?
I don't know.

I know I'm stronger than this.
But others don't see it the way I do.
Hardly anyone knows what I'm trying to do, or even, why do I even bother fighting this war?
Everyone says I'm going to lose.
Sometimes, I've really got no energy to carry on.

Yes, call me childish.
Yes, call me irritating.
Yes, call me disgusting.
Yes, make fun of how ugly I am.
Yes, make fun of how sissy I am.
Yes, criticize me on how stupid I am.
Yes, say how much I can't do something.
Yes, tell me how malicious or fake I can be.
I know that I'm every one of these things above.
And of which, there are really a lot of things I can't do about.
Yes, I'm trying to change.
Changing into someone, who can't be anymore fake.

I feel exhausted, from the day, and from all this stupid things that are coming into my head.
Good night.
I will try to forgive and forget, even to those whom I really hate.

Don't bother reading, it's just thrash going through my mind.

2010-05-22T18:42:00.004+08:00

Just a short post before I continue with any homework/study whatsoever. :D
Just went swimming with Ben Soh.
I think swimming's great.
It's one of the easiest way to keep fit.
If not for that pathetic problem of mine, I'm sure to go everyday!
I'd be as fit as Linus, HAHAHHA, joking.

Before that, I went for study group with G club, minus that LF.
Ever busy.
Was walking to Causeway point for lunch, and this conversation came up.
As all Riversidians know, we've been changing principals like ever since 2005.
With that, it also means changing of rules and everything else concerned.
And coincidentally, today was CIP, recycle day.

Me: Hey, today's CIP day right, there were this bunch of people knocking on my door early in the morning.
Yekai: Yeah, it is, CIP day, with the 3Rs! Recycle, Reuse and Reduce right! (Yekai, you got the order wrong)
Patricia: Yeah lor, our school also have the 3Hs right.
Me: Eh, heads, hands & heart is it?
Patricia: Yeah!
Yekai: I think Riverside also has the 3Cs.
Patricia & I: Huh? Where got? What is it?

-Awaits for Yekai to say something very intelligent, what you always expect from him-
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-cues laughter here-
HAHAHAHAHAHA, WTH.
To think we thought highly of him.
.________________.
Okay, maybe it's not so funny now.
It was seriously the joke of the year just now when Yekai said it. -.-

It was an enriching experience, HAHAHAHA.
Till next time!

P.S. Bensoh, I can see that you've grown wider, and whiter. I suggest you eat less. -.-
P.P.S. I've lost the motivation to blog about Mercure, it's going to take very long.
P.P.P.S. PLAYLIST UPDATED, TOTALLY NEW PLAYLIST! :D

2010-05-15T21:02:00.002+08:00

Good bye Mercure.
And hello Singapore.

First, I would like to apologise to Sokling for breaking the water goblet in her room.
Other than that, failing to dispose it properly resulting in the cut on her fingers.
SORRY! ><

I'm not to go into detail about the trip until the last batch leaves Singapore on Monday.
So, let's wait till then! :D

The first few days weren't as fun as I thought it would be.
The lectures were kinda boring.
Nevertheless, the best parts were spending time with you classmates, slacking and talking nonsense.
DTRM 04 FAGGALETTES FTW!

That's it for today, bye!

P.S. HAPPY 3 YEARS JEANETTE BURENO! ^^

WAKEBOARDING FTW.

2010-05-08T22:47:00.003+08:00

I'm back from wakeboarding camp! :D
And yes, I know I've been blogging so little recently.
I don't know why I've lost the motivation to blog );

So I asked myself, why did I create a blog in the first place?
I have no idea, honestly.
I guess its cause everyone has a blog.
And to TRY to be "in", I got a blog of my own?
Hah, many of my friends have deleted their blogs.
So should I continue doing this?
I don't really know.

But meanwhile, lets welcome JEANO BURENO back to Singapore!
How was Mecure?
Fabulous? :D
It's gonna be my turn in 1 day's time.
I'm so looking forward to it.
I'm getting kinda sick though.
I hope it doesn't deteriorate to a condition which disallows me to go to Mecure );
GET WELL SOON DUDE!

So how was Wakeboarding camp?
It turned out a little boring.
Nevertheless, there were really fun parts of the camp too!
Well, I made quite a few friends to begin with.
And Benjamin Chua went for the camp too, which didn't make me feel lonely! :D (You know I'm anti-social)
I shall elaborate on 3 specific activities during the camp!

First off, nightwalk!
Okay, perhaps it wasn't really a traditional nightwalk.
It wasn't scary as we were walking blindfolded around the school in groups.
We campers, were supposed to walk around while getting "tekan-ed" by the GLs.
So we were sprayed with water.
We were asked to slide down a soapy hill.
We were asked to shout stuff like, "I'm gayboy!"
There was this one station where I had to look for a Pingpong ball in a dirty bucket of water filled with god knows what.
So I started digging, deep.
See what I've done wrong?
Pingpong balls float and not sink. -.-
We were placed in canvas sheets and "washing machined" with soap, sand, and other disgusting stuff.
My group bonded really much there.
Lots of inside jokes there.

Okay secondly, station games.
Probably the best station games I've ever had.
There was this specific station where we had to all apply lipstick.
-.-
And we had to "kiss" this guy's photo till there was lipstick all over his face.
It was probably the stupidest game I've ever played.
I ended up with lipstick all over my face.
Walao );
It's gonna make my skin so much worse.
I should have sit out.

Lastly, WINCH!
The BEST part of the camp, I swear.
The best thing I've ever done in camps.
We wakeboarded in the swimming pool, using a pulling machine!
First we had to learn the correct posture.
Then we had to learn how to stand properly, etcetc.
I waited and waited, and finally, it was my turn to ride!
So I took like 2minutes to wear those shoes, those super tight shoes -.-
I had 2 laps to ride.
i totally screwed up my first lap, by falling into the water twice.
I finally got the hang of it and made it all the way back on the 2nd lap.
WOOOO!
It was so much fun, seriously.
If I ever want to do it again, it's 80 dollars an hour.

WHAT THE HELL.
HAHAHAH.

I shall end by wishing 3 special people Happy Birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARENCE (though I don't really know you.)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAY MY CAMP HAO PENG YOU! :D

Kthanksbye.

2010-05-02T22:07:00.002+08:00

I don't actually know what to blog about.
So let me wish Bon Voyage to all the people I know who are going to Mecure tomorrow.

And I shall dedicate this post to people I know from 01 & 03.
1. Jeanette.
Have fun, but don't go look for other men! :D
2. Wei Yi
3. Ghim Hui.
4. Kymm.
5. Hazel.
6. May.
7. 03 guys.
8. Sara.
9. Shiyan.

ALL THE BEST!
Or whatever...

Weather & I

2010-04-30T20:19:00.003+08:00

I'm behaving strangely nowadays!
And I really have no idea why.
I'm guessing it must be the weather.
One moment its hot, one moment it rains heavily.
What is wrong with the world?!
Its making feel very tired in the evening, and very alive at night. -.-
And its getting me so moody! ._.
Feels like PMS, does it feel this way?

I've been too tired to do any blogging recently.
And since it's my friday, let's do it!
Let me see what I can recall.

So what's been up?
I went K-boxing on Wednesday with Shiokolates, Peiying, Wendy, Linus, Nigel, Melvin and Keith!
I'm like so addicted to it already.
At first I sang 1 or 2 songs, then all the Chinese songs came on.
So was kinda sian for a moment.
So I just sang a few songs that I knew!
Okay, maybe there was nothing special then.
But we all had fun I guess! :D

And today, 04 went to practice our immersion performance.
We managed to finish learning Hannah Montana's Hoedown Throwdown, even though it's not yet of the right standard.
But we can do it!
I had troubles learning Again and Again.
It wasn't an easy dance.
Adding to that was the fact that I'm not like Linus or Keith who could dance better cause they've watched it like millions of times.
Linus and Keith could dance it pretty well, which made me kinda -.- cause I wasn't catching up.
Worst of all, this process is going to drag cause not everyone was present when we were learning the dance.
We're so doing everything from the beginning again.
Pfft, yeah, I know, I'm full of complaints.
But what can you expect from someone who has an external locus of control. -.-

Tomorrow's Labour day!
Isn't that like great?!
Public holiday! :D:D
No wait, there's an amazing race trial tomorrow and I can't rest at home! );
Actually no, I'm not complaining.
It's gonna be fun I guess.
We're going to test people on the MRT system!
By we, I meant Nigel and I, who are fortunately or unfortunately, situated with each other.
We shall see how it goes tomorrow.

Okay here's the best for the last.
Well, at least I think this was the best part of the week.
Let me introduce the new, or old members of our class!
1. Amanda Cecilia Medusa Chong Peiying! -.-
2. Jennifer Wendy Huin Wei Jun.
3. Sharon Shannon Tan.
4. Margaret Goh Sok Ling.
5. Cloudy Yang Shi Shi.
6. Cynthia Ang Weilin
7. Adelynn Wang Puifun.
8. Barbara Chen Huiru.
9. Tomato Irene Isabella Leow Pei Jin.
10. Nana Kassie Tan Yan Jiao.
11. Monicachen Nur Faizah.
12. Amber Monica Cheng Bee Hwa.
13. Angelo Anus Linus Wee Jie Ying.
14. Michael Nigel Chew.
15. Anthony Tony Yeoh Chong Lin.
16. Bobby Keith Kok Jie Jun.
17. Asparagus Ameer Roshan.
18. Timmy Melvin Xu Wen Yang.
19. Tiffany Lim Tian Wei.
20. Horny Rachel Tan.
And lastly, me, Alex Ho Zheng Hui! :D
We gave ourselves stupid names.
Yeah, even though there's quite some unhappiness going on, I can never describe how funnily stupid my class is at times.
WOOO!

DTRM 04 FTW.

2010-04-25T21:18:00.002+08:00

I really wish to try real hard to achieve this.
But you don't seem interested.
No, I haven't tried really hard at this.
But I don't want to get that sense of disappointment once again.
You work so hard but end up failing again, and again, and again.
And that feeling just sucks.
I'm just so not good at this.

Was supposed to go to the gym today with Yekai and Patricia.
But there were last minute crop ups and Patricia couldn't come.
So we decided not to go to the gym but to the stadium.
The things Yekai and I did there were just pathetic.
We went to run 2.4 as usual.
After that we wanted to train pull ups.
But then there was this guy at the pull up bar area.
So we were to awkward to go over to do any pull ups cause we could hardly do any.
So in the end, we went to do some grand stand.
Point being, I was damn tired at the end of the day.

Shit, I find it so hard to blog and watch star awards at the same time.
/shrugs.

Okay bye.
I DO HOPE THINGS WOULD WORK OUT! ><

WHAT RUBBISH!

2010-04-24T16:29:00.002+08:00

Oh damn it, the E-learning system of SP crashed.
WHAT RUBBISH!
I wanted to continue with my Business Law tutorial which I didn't print out.
So I had to go online to get the questions.
However, the damn thing crashed.
So here I am, with my Business Law tutorial undone. );

Okay moving along.
I've quit my damn job!
WOOHOOOOOO!
The feeling is so just damn shiok.
I don't have to suffer on my weekends anymore!
No more standing there, staring at customers.
No more depending on the radio to pass time.
AND THE BEST PART, MY LOVELY WEEKENDS!

Went out with Sokling to get my tutorials done today.
Quite efficient leh, got my FMAH tutorial done!
Got 1/2 of my Business Law tutorial done.
Now at IHRO.
IHRO's damn hard.
I seriously don't know what the question wants. );
Like every question seems the same.

Okay anyway, I'd be going to Malaysia from the 10th to 15th May!
Some immersion trip by the school.
I heard that we can K-box and bowl for free at the resort!
Doesn't that sound damn fun already?!
Yeah, looking forward to it.
2 more weeks!

Okay, bye.
/hops off abruptly.

2010-04-22T21:16:00.002+08:00

I've got so much to complain about!
Let me start of with K-pop.
No complaints please, no haters either.

I used to like K-pop, I'd admit it.
But come on, what has K-pop come to these days?
People don't like the songs cause they're nice.
They listen to those songs just cause those pretty girls or hot guys are singing them.
And some of my classmates are singing K-pop, or playing K-pop all the time?
I am kinda annoyed.
And no, I'm not saying that the songs are annoying.
The worst part is when my classmates talk about the singers.
Taekyon, Taeyon, Ga-in or whoever, people whom I do not know.
I don't get involved in most of the conversations among the K-guys in class.
And I really don't feel like getting myself involved ._.

Next thing I want to complain about!
I am seriously IRRITATED by someone.
I do not want to mention that certain someone.
It's for me to know and you to find out.
Well, if you know, then good for you.
For now, I shall name this certain person fag.
So what has fag been doing to piss me off?

First and foremost, this person has been hitting me.
For what, I don't know.
For fun maybe.
No it isn't fun.
Your punches, slaps and whatsoever hurt, so I DO NOT, and I repeat DO NOT, find it funny.
And when I lay my finger on you, you become unhappy.
Come on, if you don't want someone to do something to you, then don't do it.

Secondly, I feel seriously irritated sometimes when you just tell me off.
Okay, whats with you doing this.
I don't see you doing this to the other guys.
You like to say things to put me down.
You just remind me of my primary school life.
It's just so irritating.

So whatcha trying to do?
Get a life and stop bullying.
I can be mean to you too.
But I choose not to.

So let me give you this warning.
Don't piss me off again.
Or you're going to get it from me.

/shrugs.
Bye.

2010-04-18T11:59:00.008+08:00

I see that so many people found my blog.
Especially people from school.

Anyway, just a short update.
I didn't go to work today because of two reasons.

One, I'm feeling quite sick.
No, I haven't recovered.
In fact, it's getting worse.
People say that I may have throat infection.
I better go see a doctor soon.

Two, I'm feeling so damn lazy.
It's kinda my last day of work.
Still, I've got no mood to go get changed into that thick polo tee and stepping out of the house.
I need to discipline myself more.

Okay besides that, I promised an update of my campers from FOC.
Other than that, the DTRM 04 years 1s.
Let me start with the campers.

MY FOC CHILDREN!
From top left to top right, Geraint, Warren, Ho Zheng Hui, Scott, Benjamin, Weisong, Irene.
From bottom left to bottom right, Yijing, Audrey, Jasmine, Adonia, Hilda, Mangai.

We met up for an outing two days ago.
On friday!
Went to have lunch at Benten and ate this huge bucket of fruit ice-cream.
Damn nice, you guys should go try.
So here's a picture!

Moving on to FOP year 1s :D
A bunch of insane people that I spent four days with.

The most enthusiastic class in DTRM in my opinion.
They bonded pretty quickly.
And there were just a few who totally brought up the atmosphere.
Yeah, totally love the class.
And of course, totally proud to be appointed facilitator of that class. :D

Lastly, the 3 proud facilitators of DTRM/1A/04/10/11 :D (For more pictures, go to my facebook profile page!)

Going to Orchard with Benjamin Soh later.
New Urban Male's last day of promotions.
BUY 1 GET 1 FREE OKAY.
And I know, I used to be a hater of NUM. :P
It's not too late to be a fan of it? HAHAHA.

Last last piece of good news.
MY DAD ALLOWED ME TO DYE MY HAIR. <3
Hairstylist here I come! :D

P.S. Thanks to all who encouraged me to think that I was special and unique after I did my previous post.
Namely, Zhiyun, Sokling, Tianwei, Tony, Weilin and Jennifer, not in any order.
HAHAHA, sorry if I missed anyone out.

Okay bye. (:

2010-04-14T21:28:00.003+08:00

It's one of those thinking days again.
I thought about myself.
I thought about why something can work for someone else and not me.
I thought about what, or who I was trying to be.
Well, this post is just about my honest thoughts etc.
And I do know, my way of thinking is really different.
But please, don't be a hater.

Let me share a story before I start.
It's about a boy and his father.
There was this man who was always foul tempered.
One day, he was tightening the screws of his car and giving it a wash.
So he turned to his son and found him scratching his car with a small rock.
He got so angry and hit his son on the hand.
So when he got back his consciousness, he realised that he was actually hitting his son's hand with a hammer.
Yes, he lost some money having to repaint his car.
SO WHAT, WHAT HAS HIS SON LOST?
His hand.

Back to topic.
So what about me?
I always thought I was fairly good looking, or actually quite good looking.
And I always thought I knew how to dress up.
Wait, don't boo me just yet.
I took a good look at everyone around me today.
And wow, I'm nowhere near an average standard.
I always envied Daniel, Clayderman, Charles or whoever, for having be the topic among girls.
And I thought I could be the talk among girls too.
Now that I think of it, I kinda find it a joke.
Come on, I don't have their style, I don't have their looks.
What was I thinking.
I should've been contented with what I had.

I thought that as long as I tried looking like them, then I would gain some popularity.
No, I don't have the stuff.
I'm not as confident as they are.

I realised that life isn't just about being attractive, or being well liked.
Ever since secondary 2, I've been trying to change.
Trying to look or act "beng" so that I wouldn't be bullied like how I used to be.
I learnt how to dress up.
I learnt how to walk.
I learnt how to talk.
Then again, I realised that it was just a front.
I'm not like others.
Even though I've changed a lot on the outside, I'm still one timid and afraid little boy inside.
I feel so small whenever I'm surrounded by a huge crowd.
So who am I trying to be?
I've got to stop pretending to be someone who I ain't.
But somehow, I'm just now proud of myself.
I'm not like Clayderman, or Junjie or whoever, full of confidence.
I can always grow on the outside, thinking that I would follow up on the inside.
No, it hasn't worked.

I'm kinda sick of trying to be someone else.
I feel disappointed with myself.
4 years of effort and I'm giving it all up.
Though 4 years may seem short to everyone else.
It's been a tiring journey all the way here.
I don't know what to do next.
Life seems to have come to a pause.
What now?

I'd feel better tomorrow, bye.

2010-04-13T22:21:00.004+08:00

I found this interesting picture series on the internet and I'd love to share it.
It's super lame and funny.
Click on it if you're squinting. =.=

The student decided not to attempt the question by drawing and elephant and saying that it was blocking the student from seeing the question.
Now part 2...

Apparently, the student didn't draw a tail on the elephant.
So the teacher deducted 3 marks saying that elephants have tails.

TEACHER FOR THE WIN!
HAHAHAHHA :D

That was random.
Okay, bye.

2010-04-09T19:55:00.002+08:00

Let me post some pictures today!
It's all about camp.

Let me start off with Irene, my purrrrincess and my wacky partner! :D

This photo is damn retarded.
And who's hand is it below?!

PURRRRINCESS AND THE FURRRRROG!

Now Adonia, my part time partner who we had to help out during the camp.
I had two wives, HAHAHAH!

They boo-ed me when I took this photo, LOL.
Peiying said, jerk of the century.

And now... SAIKANG WARRIORS! (Worse jobs ever warriors)

3 guys and the girl who LOVES small birds.
SMALL BIRD FTW!

AND AND, WE TAUPOK-ED GREGORY!

Ouch, why am I at the bottom?

DTRM FACILITATORS ALL THE WAY! :D

These people sneaked out to eat MacDonalds one night.

And lastly, my favourite photo of the album, YET.
And why?
THE THREE OF US LOOK DAMN GOOD! :D

I haven't got photos of my campers.
Waiting for 1 of them to upload.
Will upload it real soon!

Till then, GOODBYE.

2010-04-07T19:45:00.002+08:00

FOC was a blast!
The best camp I've had ever since primary 5, honest.
:D

Okay well, maybe the activities weren't planned out so perfectly.
In fact, the planning kinda sucked which caused quite an amount of people to complain.
But then again, we had fun.
That's all that matters isn't it?

There were some changes that we had to apply on the 1st day of camp.
Jason was not allowed to enter the camp if he came for it.
And so, Adonia's going to end up without a partner.
Her placing in the camp by default was a group leader.
But without a partner, she couldn't handle a group.
My point is, Irene and I were told to help her handle her group.
And so, we ended up part time group leaders.
Yeah, I was kinda happy.
I wanted to be a group leader even before I went for the interview.

So the campers came at around 12 noon.
I was in charge of group 3, Titanic.
The first few who came were all guys which was shocking.
Every other group had girls except mine.
Okay, let's skip the boring parts.

Gala night!
Cupids did their cluster dance, which I thought was best among the other clusters.
Even though they had slick moves like break dance or whatsoever, we had real sexy moves!
Hahahaha, we did Abracadabra dance.
And also she bangs -.-
All of that put together with Tik Tok by Kesha.
Oh, when I find the video, I'd post it!

Then there was Titanic's performance.
It turned out kinda soft because they didn't know how to use the microphone.
Well, it was still great though.
Especially the Titanic cheer, where everyone else joined in.
Titanic FTW!

After Gala night was Disco night.
So danced around the stage like crazy with hot dance tracks.
There was someone going around groping.
No, it wasn't normal groping.
There was a guy groping other guys, wtf.
I think dancing with Irene and the campers was damn cool.
I lost the damn SB carnival money and had to go around looking for it.
Forgot to zip my pouch, damnit.
Luckily Desmond found it and passed it to the OCs.
Thanks loads ah! :D

I'd upload pictures of my campers when I get them.
And awwwww, they wrote real sweet messages for facilitators, or maybe just me.
-shy- HAHAHAHA.
They called me Auntie Lucy! ._.

And I don't know what I did in the camp that people knew me as the guy who was acting gay.
=.=
I can't talk properly now.
Too much shouting makes you a camel.
LOL, random.

BYE! :D

2010-04-03T23:48:00.001+08:00

I'm going for camp tomorrow!
Don't miss me :P

I'm updating my songs right after this post.
So go listen!
They're really nice songs.
So, till Thursday...

TAKE CARE, GOOD BYE!

2010-03-31T20:16:00.000+08:00

Someone had epic pronounciation today.

"Maybe she MEE-GRATED to Singapore."

Guess who?
I'd give you a little prize if you got it right.
HAHAHAHA.

-hops off-

2010-03-29T14:40:00.002+08:00

Typical weekday at home.
Nothing to do.
Staring at the computer.
I don't know how many times I've said this already.
Especially when people ask me, "What are you doing?".

I shall start this post with work.
Some things that I found interesting to talk about.

I served this customer who spoke to me in Chinese.
And you know how much I detest Chinese.
Point ain't whatever you think it is.
His Chinese was as horrible as mine.
He spoke with some English slang in it.
Keyword, SOME.
So I had this intention to reply him in English.
So the whole conversation sounded very...
WRONG.

Second incident.
This man whom I really wanted to throw out of the shop.
Apparently, his name is exactly similar to the person I despise most on earth.
He asked me to look for a shoe, which did not have his size.
So I told him so and he was VERY unhappy.
He told me to check with other outlets.
I got kinda annoyed, especially when he demanded a reply by the next day.
Point is, I'm not working today.
I told him that and he asked for my name.
I hate it when customers ask for my name especially for a reason that isn't worth mentioning.

So he went to look for another shoe.
He picked it up and asked for his size, which also was not available.
Then he started his racism.

J (Customer): Why all your shoes don't have size? I believe that the next shoe I pick won't have a small size either.
Cousin (Who also had it with J): The models you picked are the old models, therefore having limited stock.
J: You sure or not? Your shoes all so big, for all the ******* is it?
J: You see, Chinese people, body so proportionate, etcetc.
Zh: (Stunned. Did he just say that?!)
Cousin: Oh actually some people can't even wear the biggest shoe we have here.
J: Why ah?
Cousin: I don't know, maybe because of their genes?
J: Oh, that person ****** right? Then his father leg also very big ah?
Zh: (WTF, racist bastard. Confirm here to create trouble only.)
Cousin: (Totally stunned by the stupid question) I don't know, he didn't bring his dad.
J: Oh. You better call me by tomorrow ah.

COUSIN PWNS FUCKED UP CUSTOMER! :D
I would have sued him if I had the power to.

I guess this is it for this post.
Goodbye! :D
I'm getting better!

2010-03-26T12:51:00.002+08:00

This was originally supposed to be a post filled with vulgarities.
Let me explain why.
I wanted to add a profile picture onto the profile part. (english fail).
But when I saved the changes to the template, there was this... bad error.
So I had to go look for another blogskin and redo everything over again (english fail part II).
So I found this blogskin and felt kinda satisfied with it.
Every section I did, I saved the changes to the template, so as to not having accidental removal of any parts.
Guess what?

BAD ERROR.
AGAIN.
Screw blogger.

So I decided to do everything on the notepad.
Thereafter, pasting the HTML code onto blogger's template.
So here's what I have! :D
Its tons better than the previous one eh?

Then again, I've lost all my links.
So please do leave a tag on the tagboard and I'd link you up as soon as I can.
Thanks loads!

Last part of my update.
LISTEN TO THE SONGS ON THE PLAYLIST!
I've updated them and put them on shuffle.
So you won't be listening to the same song everytime you come here.
I've added 5 new songs to the playlist :D
LISTEN ALRIGHT.

No, I'm not getting better.
The flu's gone, but my cough is getting worse.
I don't know how many times I woke up last night just to cough.

I'm getting hungry.
-grabs food-
Bye.

2010-03-25T16:21:00.002+08:00

HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON!
Isn't the dragon just awesomely cute?

Went to catch this movie with Sokling today.
Awww, I'm in love with the dragon.
It doesn't even look like a dragon.
But then again, how often do you find a dragon this special!
You've got to watch this movie.
It's kinda kiddish but yeah, really worth watching.
I'd rate it like... 4/5!
Really, go watch it, you'd love it.

I'm getting sicker!
No, I'm not proud of it.
But I do hope I get well soon.
The cough really gets on my nerves.
I wake up all of a sudden just to cough, then go back to sleep.
Win.

Okay, shall get going, cruel temptation!

2010-03-24T16:08:00.002+08:00

Click it.
RESULTS ARE OUT!
And that's my result slip for this semester.
I'm quite happy that I made an improvement.
Actually not that happy due to the fact that I was slacking last semester.
It pulled down my GPA quite a bit.
FURGHHH, I didn't get a 3 for overall GPA.

-grumbles-

Then again, I should be glad.
Imma work hard next semester!
I always say this, but will it ever happen?

Anyway, I'm back from camp!
DON'T YOU PEOPLE MISS ME. :D
-cues sarcastic remarks by fizzy- );

Camp was a blast.
But kinda felt extra among the guys in my cluster.
It's either that's really true or I'm just being paranoid.
Awww.
I would have had more fun if there weren't so many comments of dissatisfaction.
HAHAHA.
Whatever.

/random: WHY DID CYY GIVE ME A DAMN C+ FOR PTH?!
C'mon, the paper was damn easy and I got A for both my projects.
DID I DO THAT BADLY?!
Weather was even worse, don't even mention it. -.-

OFF TO SLEEP!
I'm dead beat from camp.

2010-03-22T11:54:00.002+08:00

I feel horrible.
I just realised that I've fallen sick, don't know how long ago.
I can't stop coughing.
And yesterday, I woke up in the middle of the night and sneezed around 10 times consecutively.
Thereafter going back to sleep.
.______.

DTRM preparatory camp's over!
It was a blast.
Especially the nightwalk.
Let me elaborate...

I was assigned to the not-so-dark staff room corridor with Peiying, Wendy and Shuming from 07.
So we gave each other roles.
Peiying was in-charge of singing at the corner.
Wendy was sitting in another corner in charge of producing the annoying chain saw sound.
Shuming was in-charge of the ritual, where she had to throw water onto the facilitators.
I was in charge of crawling and grabbing feet!
I was wearing Shuming's hoodie, so that the facilitators could not recognise us easily.
Her hoodie's so cool that you can zip it up all the way that no one could recognise you.
There was once where Jeremy, who was the facilitator, was so scared, he was attacking us ._.
Almost got kicked in the face, HAHAHAH.
And there was another time I grabbed Changhong from the back, and he ended up swearing.
Jinsheng tried to unzip my hoodie to find out who I was.
That's all I remember.
Moving along...

I had to work yesterday.
It turned out quite exhausting.
My legs were hurting before I even attended work.
I couldn't stand up.
And every first step I took, I would trip, for I don't know what reason.
I couldn't bend down.
And yesterday, I sold lots of asics shoes.
And those shoes were located at the top of the shelves.
So I was climbing the ladder with every step hurting.
Couldn't wait for work to end.
=.=

I saw the AA footdrill clip just now.
Awww, how I miss competition with AC 06 and AC 07.
The times we cried together.
The times we talked about M (?!) together, LOL.
The times we complained about every single thing.
HAHAHA.
I'm currently looking for either one of the years where we did footdrill.
So, does anyone have the videos of the actual competition footdrill?
If you do, send me, thanks! :D

...

My cousin just called, and asked if I could work today.
So I'd get going!
Climbing ladders again.
Gosh.
Bye.

2010-03-19T20:52:00.002+08:00

Hello.
I know, I haven't updated for like, 1 week.
Time passes by so fast when you're busy.

What's been going on these few days?
Firstly, CAMP MEETINGS AND TRAININGS.

Let's start with the trainings.
There was one training on monday.
Nothing much actually, just talked quite a bit to Hazel and Adonia.
Then there was also training today.
Today's training was pretty much the best one since day 1.
Especially the station games.
Cupids vs. Fantasy.
LOL, Fantasy people keep giving that face ._.
I think they don't like me or something like that.
Especially the guys who were seriously terrifying.
I don't think I would try initiate a conversation with them.
Who knows what would happen to me.
Ah well, I'm proud to be a part of Cupid.

Ah, then there's camp meetings.
Leroy wasn't there, which made me find the meetings kinda... I don't know.
Hes in vietnam, so we can't blame anyone.

Speaking of meetings, the preparatory camp is tomorrow!
And I've got work on Sunday. ._.
Well, I'm going for the nightwalk.
And guess what, a timid person like me can also be a scarer!
Hope that I won't be scaring myself.
I'm located at... with 3 girls.
I'm the only guy, better eat some tiger pills (?) and act like a man!
HAHAHA,
The facilitators will find out tomorrow.
And I'm leaving school straight after nightwalk, hmmm.

I had an outing with G Club yesterday!
It was so damn fun I tell you.
Especially all the stupid things we did.
And, SALAD BUFFET AT FISH AND CO.
Splendid.

Okay, shall get going.
I'm so sorry for the abrupt ending.
Good night.

2010-03-16T21:40:00.001+08:00

If it's not going to work, I don't want to use it.
Stop lying.

2010-03-13T23:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAHONG!

And thank you so much for the Lady Gaga album.
HAHAHAHA.
I wanted it, but I didn't need it.
So you didn't need to buy for me.
Especially on your birthday -.-
But still, thanks :D

2010-03-12T11:02:00.012+08:00

The official video is OUTTT!
I've been waiting for it for quite some time already.
HAHAHA.
Watch it, Lady Gaga - Telephone (Ft. Beyonce).
It's absolutely random, nothing like the song at all.

Spoiler (Watch the video then read this):
I think you can find the most naked Gaga here.
There's one part where shes topless with just 2 tapes used to tape her nipples.
And her panties were translucent, luckily censored.
Like, wtf?!
And one part where someone said, "I told you she didn't have a dick".
That was wtf random.
And and, she called Beyonce Honey Bee?!
At one point of the video, there were like 5 coke cans in her hair. =.=
I have no idea why.
HAHAHAH.
For those who didn't watch and it just read this, watch it.
Super funny.
AHHHH, Lady Gaga is AWESOME.

/Edit: I don't know why it's a private video.
Go to youtube and watch it, search LadygagaVevo.
Go to the channel, the first video should be it.
A lot of ~~fake~~ fan made videos out there.
Pfft.

And lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELVIN.

2010-03-09T16:05:00.003+08:00

[c=29][i]Nigel.^^Monkey =DD 'What's wrong with the world?'[/i][/c] says:
lols.
okay..
i love rainie!
:3 (Stupid blogger doesn't allow a heart shape, so I used this instead)
bye~

LOL, freak.
Now we know who monkey is ._.

I joined the Cathay mascot naming contest!
$10,000 worth of vouches eh!
Yeah, I know, dream on right?
But no harm trying, HAHAHA.
If I win, woah, don't need work already.
I said, IF.
I'd be waiting, HAHAHAHA.

Release of results in 15 days, oh my gosh.
Moment of truth ._.

Ok byebye.
I'm hungry and I want to stuff myself with chocolate cakeeee.

!

2010-03-08T18:26:00.002+08:00

ADAM LAMBERT AND KATY PERRY!

Adam Lambert's coming to Singapore!
And even though I'm not a huge Adam Lambert fan, I wanna go see him this friday!
Sadly, I don't know how to.
All I know is that he'd be at University Studios at 8.30pm!
It'd be damn cool if I could take a picture with him.
Then I'd go around showing off, LMAO.
Typical me huh?

Awww, if only Katy Perry would come to Singapore!
I would do anything to go see her and take a picture oh my god.
Sorry for the excitement. -.-

So many idols coming to Singapore eh.
Soon Jason Castro and Kelly Clarkson.
I think Kelly Clarkson's quite cool too.
But I kinda get sick of her songs after listening to them awhile.
Whereas for Katy...
I'm still addicted to songs from "One of the Boys"!
I'm a true blue Katy Perry fan, HAHAHAH. @@.
More like a freak huh.
She has an album coming up this year!
I'd be at the edge of my seats waiting.

I feel healthier!
Went swimming with Benjamin Soh today.
My first time and I think my last time going swimming with him.
HAHAHA, joking.
HE IS SUCH A DISGRACE.
He thinks hes staying in a condo.
What did he bring to the pool?
A towel over his head, nothing else. =.=
I think he almost went half naked.
And he was like, UHHH, don't look at me when I'm taking off my shirt.
Who wants to look, PUI.

Anyway... HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!
I've been working over the weekend, so I didn't really have time to blog.
Yaye, money money.
I'm gonna get some things before school starts.
1. NUM slippers (even though I used to critisize people who used NUM stuff, but I think slippers are okay.)
2. Bermudas!
3. Long sleeved shirts! (I'm copying KK, LOL).
4. White Loafers/PVC white shoes (I think they're damn cool)
5. Those shoes which I don't know what they're called.
6. Decent Skinny Jeans!
I think sneakers are outta fashion already.
Time to move on man!

HAHAHA.
Okay, cruel temptation.
Blog some other time!

2010-03-05T20:35:00.003+08:00

Just who the hell are you?

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!
I'm kinda confident that I can do well this time round.
And even if I don't, I know I've already tried my best.
So if its not enough, I'd have no choice but to try even harder the next semester!
I'm pretty sure I'll get a GPA of at least 3 this semester.
Which makes me kinda happy.

So I thought today was gonna be great!
Went Kbox with the Nigel, Linus, Melvin and Keith.
Initially I thought it was gonna be kinda boring.
But woah the class guys impressed me.
Nigel was singing like some mad man, so emotional huh?
I think he should get his lyrics right first.
Linus was suffering from insomnia?
Sang lots of weird weird songs.
Were screaming at some of them.
Quite funny when Nigel kept singing the songs wrongly.

...

I wonder what that was for.
Revenge?
Fine, I don't have anything else to say.
I'm not going to fall into a deeper hole than this.
Argh, don't lie to me.
Don't say anything you don't mean.

I have no other reason to watch American Idol anymore.
John Park's out.
Haeley Vaughn's out.
The last person I'm rooting for is Katie Stevens.
Argh, stupid show.

Today's the last day I'm going to try.
No more rubbish.

First day of work tomorrow.
All the best to me.

I'm proud to be part of the DTRM 04 shiokolates.
Even though we didn't get highest in class for our CA2, or you can say we did.
I'm glad we had fun, and I'm glad we could work together so well.
I'm looking forward to other projects together (:

2010-03-01T19:59:00.002+08:00

WHY IS IT SO HOT?!
I can't stop sweating. ._.

Anyway...
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO AMBERRRR!
CONGRATULATIONS TO UNCLE FELIX AND AUNTIE DORRIS FOR GETTING MARRIED!
AND LASTLY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AUNTIE ANNIE!

Hahahahahaha.

2010-02-25T23:13:00.002+08:00

So why this picture?
I'm not as random as others to put a photo for no reason!

Yekai: Look in the dustbin!
zh: Something disgusting is it? I'm eating here.
Yekai: No, there's a water boiler inside!
zh: O_O"
-Continues walking-
yekai: Hey, move to the side. there's a bus behind.
zh: -breaks into laughter-

I know this sounds like a mistake that anyone could make anyday.
But yekai made it sound so funny la.
I was like, why was there a bus on the pavement?! ._.
Okay, better not that funny. =.=

Went studying today.
I'm done with Index number, Regression, ANOVA and Chi Square.
SAY YAY!
That's a whole lot of things okay.
I tried doing the 07/08 paper.
I could attempt everyone except Probabilty, which I haven't studied.
HAHAHHAA, it makes me happy.

After that, went gym with Patricia and Yekai.
We left quite early for the stadium.
Hahahaha.
We ran up and down the tall stairs(or whatever you call it) 10 times!
It may sound like a piece of cake.
YOU SHOULD TRY IT!
I was panting like crazy after that!
Then I did 50 sit ups and I don't know how many crunches(?).
I couldn't stand up, it was that horrible, but I feel much more pac-cy now! (LOL omg at language.)

TIREDDDDD.
I've got to study tomorrow.
So, good night! (:

2010-02-24T20:15:00.002+08:00

AHHHH!
SCREW FOM!
My chances of getting top 10 in class is gone.
Yes, I did want to get top 10 in class ._.
The questions in the paper were phrased differently.
And because I memorized everything purely, I couldn't understand how the questions were phrased.
Like they used middlemen in the question, but in the notes, they used channel members. (?!)
There are more that I just can't remember.
Whatever it is, FOM's over.
Get over it, there's still Statistics to redeem myself.

I'm not expecting the paper to be easy at all.
I have 6 days to prepare for the paper.
I know I can do this.
I'm determined to get at least a B for statistics!
I'm not as bright as most of the guys in class, who can do last minute work and still beat me when the results come in.
So I have to start now, TODAY.
I've been doing tutorial, so I don't see why I should do badly! @_@.
However, theres a flaw to my plan, which I will not mention to demoralise myself.
I CAN DO IT! :D

I don't want to be a burden anymore, but how am I going to do it?
Hmmm.

Went to Plaza Sing with Marvelettes and most of the class guys today.
Ate Ajisen for the very first time in my life!
Don't blame me for being a mountain tortoise okay!
I bet there's at least something that I've done that you haven't.
HAH!
Then went to the arcade to catch stuff for wendy.
I played with the Sweet machine and got a Stitch couple!
HAHAHAHA.
After that, the guys went to Cathay for a movie.
LITTLE BIG SOLDIER.
I think this is one of the worst movies I've ever watched, next to Cloverfield and Planet 51.
There is no story plot, too much dialogue, too little action, not as funny as I thought.
Pretty disappointed with the movie.
But who cares when Wang Lee Hom is acting in the movie.
Girls wouldn't mind watching the movie like 10 times. =.=
ROFL, went home after the movie.

Okay, better start studying, bye! (:

2010-02-24T00:09:00.002+08:00

Furg.
Tomorrow's FOM and I'm totally not prepared.
I only finished writing my own notes.
But my revision is nowhere near done!
SHITTTTT.

The chances of failing is quite low.
But I want to do well, you know?
Yeah, I think I'd get like a C or something.
Statistics is going to be worse.

Anyway, after the paper tomorrow, the class is going to Plaza Sing to celebrate Wendy's birthday.
It's going to cost a bomb!
AJISEN!
-headdesk-

And I wonder what's wrong with my hand.
My left hand feels very weak.
I have no control over my last finger.
It feels like it isn't part of me.
I can move it, but only just a little bit.
It feels damn annoying.
It makes you feel useless.
Crap, symptoms of Parkinson's disease or something, if you know what that is.
My left hand shivers whenever I touch anything.
AHHHHH.

I'll never be the same.
If we ever meet again.
Won't let you get away.
Say if we ever meet again.

KATY PERRY :3

2010-02-22T21:23:00.002+08:00

SCREW PACC!
It was freaking... okay I guess, LOL.
There were tough questions and easy ones.
Some very ambiguous questions which I think I got wrong.
And of course, a whole lot of careless mistakes, as always!
I screwed inventory up!
SHIT SHIT SHIT, READ THE DAMN QUESTION OMG.
I'm still hoping for an A for PACC!
And I'm praying that Wendy passes.
Don't want to see her forward PACC or anything.
I feel guilty for checking my question paper repeatedly in the train, can see she got kinda, upset cause of it.
SORRY WENDY! ):<
Shit, I feel upset too, stupid paper.

It's okay, there are still 3 more papers to prove myself!

I think Peiying is really very funny.
Oh my gosh. ._.

I felt kinda distracted when studying at the waffle shop today.
I was totally turned off by my book.
And instead, was listening to something else!
SHEESH, I NEED TO STUDY IN HILLTOP ALREADY.

FOM IS ONE WEDNESDAY!
JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUUU! :D

-hops off randomly-

2010-02-19T22:56:00.002+08:00

This feeling of emptiness is back.
Where is that sense of accomplishment I used to have?
Where is that sense of belonging?
They've been lost over these years.
When I've been too caught up doing things that aren't at all important.
Doing stupid things that will do nothing but screw up my life.

._.
Sucks to be me.

2010-02-17T21:29:00.002+08:00

I think I made a wrong choice to do all those stupid things.
History's repeating itself.
Shit, please go away.
Don't make me feel this way, cause nothing ain't going to go how I want it to.
So just stop, stop right here, right now.
Say goodbye.

Maybe people get sick and tired of some things I do.
But why?
I don't know why I act a certain way, which is just not up to me to decide if I want to change or not.
Somethings should just remain the way it is, no matter how bad it is?

Pfft, the times when I throw a hissy fit.

2010-02-15T14:59:00.002+08:00

THE SONGS SECTION IS BACK! :D

Even though few or almost no people visit my blog, I felt that there was a need to put the songs section back up again.
My top 10 favourite songs at the moment!

Errr, yay? (: